I write when I can because times are pressing in my life, there is a lot going on. The end of the contest is near so the trials and tribulations only increase in size and intensity.
Let me clear the air, since this weekend is about memories and what those who have loved our country have given up for it.
There is a reason that it is Boston versus Los Angeles. legal immigrants vs. illegal immigrants, metaphysical, delmar vs. tiffani, I mean I could go on and on but why.
There is a reason because God don't do nothing for nothing.
I don't want Delmar hurt or put in jail, but what he either was aware of or whatever, was foul and I would say the same if it were my sister, my brother whomever.
I am not trying to cut Delmar out of anything, and he knows that. I can see it in his eyes when he tries to start arguments with me, and I just walk away.
It's not that I don't listen or want to hear what he has to say, but when someone brings other people in your home...........the anger can be blinding.
It's not that I don't love him, I do with all my heart, but I have learned the hard way that I can't make him love me the way I need to. I can't make him treat me the way I need him to without him loving himself first.
The games of people mentioned in this blog serve two purposes for two lives to be ruined. I can't do anything but how I react and treat my life. I love a person that hates me, and it is a familiar pattern of my life. And I apologize for not being able to combat like I can these Obama policies :-). That is the struggle of my life.
My team ain't here to sell marijuana, my team is here to help me get done what I need to do for this country, I know for some of you pimps, players, and ex-strippers that is kind of hard for you to grasp. But the God I serve is bigger than some kush, trust.
I ain't running away from the finals, I am running to it, because I am in my zone. I will be back in LA in one way or another, but with a ring from elsewhere to let the city of Angeles know, baby, you will always need me before I need you. You all are too disrespectful, I have to take it there and put my metaphysical tesiticles in your face on a slam dunk so I can get my ovaries back..............
You all made me out to be the enemy, the "unstable" one, man, please, as much disrespect I have to tolerate it is a true testament to control how I have not falled for half of your mess.
Delmar and I bought that house, but not for his family to move in because they don't have nowhere to stay. Hell, we don't have nowhere to stay. I am not leaving Dallas, but I am going back to LA to finish school. Even if I were, the biggest reason why so many names got caught up in this is because when I am threatened and I know I am dealing with folk the police will not touch, what choice do I have?
How am I not supposed to recognize game? I will not make it to church this morning, my stomach isn't feeling the best, but I just wanted to let you know that I am here.
My team is here, My celctics is here and we are going to fight, each and every minute of every game, coming with not necessarily the best "talent" on the court, but with a purpose and understanding that these are memories that will judge us, that we will be judged by for the rest of our lives.
I am trying to move electoral votes, not pounds of kush. The only thing I ask of those who get mentioned all the time in this blog lately is to ask yourself in you were in my shoes what would you do? lay down? go with the program?
that ain't me, I simply want to be debt free, and put myself in a position where I never have to depend on anyone that has ever been mentioned in this blog before from Obama on down. that don't mean I am trying to screw you, lock you up, I AM MERELY FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE b/c I am surrounded by those who press, provoke, and prod trying to get me to provoke Delmar into hurting me, or me putting myself in a position to get locked up, or anything to keep me from going on the path God has set for me.
I know I will have to answer to some of you all for comments that were made, but I assert that a significant part of those assertations were true and because of that I am going to show up to the these finals.
see you on the court, if it is to be our last hurray, or not, let's go out with a bang, and move on with our lives. I love Delmar, no doubt, and when I say that, I know his problems as he knows mine, but we both approaching forty and something gotta change.
For me, it is showing for the first time in the various finals I have played in in my life, ready, secure, not worried about the other team, just knowing I gotta do what I gotta do.
It is about valuing the memories I am about to make. I hope and pray Mr. Meadows is with me, but he and I know, that is hard to do down here with so many people with their hands out.
Let's just play ball, and see what happenes. I promise to put it all on the floor, don't want to cheat