Did you see yesterday? Did you see a team be a team and emerge?
I am going to tell a short story, make my dallas prediction, and end it right there. I have to write tomorrow because I have to harvest my crops on farmville.
Today, Delmar and I were talking about driving to work. Right now, I am not working so he is driving, the inverse doesn't necessarily work in our relationship. He mentioned that driving and not having his people see me, (he didn't say that part, but it's implied) was very important to him. It kind of hurt, b/c to me it seems petty. But I try to remind myself of the words I say on here all the time. That we all have a right to live how we want to live and how we see fit.
I cried a little inside, I need to get started on what I need to do. I want to trust Delmar to stay and pay bills and quite honestly, He is doing amazing at his new shop. He is really feeling his own. But it is the constant outside influence of _________ that reigns over his thoughts because it is all about the material things. And you can't blame or judge someone for having that type of attitude especially when they haven't had it like that to know it ain't shit. No one will call me for work. The temp agency I am with didn't even call to tell me I didn't get the assignment and took me off of the available list for two days, precluding employers from seeing my resume and me working this week.
I can't or really won't see any of my friends. Don't have money for clothes, nothing........Every dime I get I have to spend on bills. I feel at times that it ain't fair, you know and it isn't but that doesn't change anything. But after those moments pass, I understand that I am entitled to have feelings and there is nothing I can do about them but acknowledge and work through them. But after those moments, I settle down and get back into what I am focusing on long-term. I think that is one of the greatest gifts that a father gives to a child, the ability to see past emotions, the ability to stay strong in one's convictions........
I got a credit card, that's all the cash I have had all month. I spent it little by little on things we needed. I needed to buy something important didn't get it. Not yet. I got a little birthday gift for a good friend of mine, and by the time I got out of wal-mart today, maybe $30 left. I am short on what I need to get what I need to get.
I think about how Delmar will get to go out with his friends, and that alone in itself don't hurt, but the fact that I sacrifice and sacrifice and it seems the more I help others, the further I find myself in the hole. I wonder whose going to hold me close and say Tiffani it's okay to cry when I perceive comments such as those to be petty whether they may be or not. I wonder how many friends won't be here by the time get the money to pay for my surgery. I wonder will I get back to work to catch up on my student loans. I wonder....
But the point of this story is I AND YOU HAVE TO KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE FIGHTING FOR. I AM NOT FIGHTING JUST TO DRIVE A JAG, THAT NEW XJ8 THE FOUR DOOR IS CALLING ME.........like duncan donuts back in the day. I AM NOT FIGHTING JUST TO HAVE A HOUSE IN CEDAR HILL, I AM NOT FIGHTING JUST TO HAVE A TV, NOT FIGHTING FOR THAT ALTHOUGH MOST OF THAT IS INCLUDED IN THE PACKAGE.
I am not fighting just to say fuck you, Obama, we kicked your ass. I AM NOT FIGHTING AND MAKING CHARGES JUST TO GET SOME PETTY __________ AND _________ BACK FOR HATING ME FOR SHIT I DON'T EVEN KNOW ABOUT NOR CAN CONTROL. (you can't help your bloodline..........). I AM NOT FIGHTING JUST TO NOT PAY TAXES OR DO MY FAIR SHARE.
I AM FIGHTING FOR POWER. LET'S BE HONEST. I AM FIGHTING FOR THE PULL ASSOCIATED WITH THAT POWER BECAUSE I NEED IT TO EMPOWER THE CITIZENS OF THIS COUNTRY. WHEN I SAY, I MEAN FOLK LIKE PALIN, GINGRIGH, O'DONNEL(megan mccain needs to worry more about looking like a drag queen than involve herself in shit that don't apply to her),DEMINT,MYSELF, I mean folk like I am willing to do what needs to be done, regardless. Folk who know, WHO KNOW, UNDERSTAND, ACCEPT AND HAVE MOVED ON FROM THE FACT THAT THEY WILL NOT ALWAYS GET THE HEADLINES NOR THE CREDIT NOR THE ACCOLADES. FOLK WHO UNDERSTAND THAT HARD DECISIONS HAVE TO BE MADE AND THAT REQUIRES A CONVICTION THAT IS BUILT ON THE FOUNDATION OF SOLID VALUES, TRUTH, AND CHARACTER THAT DEMANDS FOR ONE TO BE THEMSELVES FOR GOOD OR FOR BAD...............
FOR GOOD OR FOR BAD.................
I walked around the store today, I can feel the eyes on me. They want to hate, but when you break down Where the spirit is and find a way to mix the weekly addresses in it, man, I'm good................
Face it.................I have and I say that not out of bravado, but out of exhausation, b/c I am tired of denying and lying to myself that I am not the shit, at least in this arena............
I am going to influence the 2012 elections on levels never seen before. I am going to be rich either way, __. ________, either way, legally or illegally. I am going to introduce medicinal marijuana not to this country, not like that, you already know, but introduce a new level of intellectuism and urban reality to this debate.
I AM THROUGH THE PRAYERS, THE THOUGHTS, THE SACRIFICES OF YOU CHANGE THIS WORLD....... AND IT SENDS SHIVERS DOWN MY BACK AS I WRITE THESE WORLD BECAUSE THE TRUTH IS POWERFUL.
I, and Palin, and Miller, and Rossi and all of these people are always going to be hated for standing up, for not giving a fuck about what's cool, for saying no, for not bowing down. And that's what it is going to require up in Washington all the way down to the local PTA meeting for this shit to work.
And people like us, hurt, we cry, we got feelings, but we can't put them out there b/c any type of hate feeds on it, and the hurt is all around us. From our family, to our foes, that comes with the territory.
I AM HERE TO DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO ENSURE THAT THERE IS A DEMOCRACY. AND THAT IS MUCH BIGGER TO MY CHAGRIN THAN JUST GETTING SOME ENDS TO GET SOME RIMS....... THAT IS MUCH BIGGER THAN SAYING WE GOT THE MAJORITY AND WE WON AND DO NOTHING ELSE.
MYSELF AND THESE PEOPLE ARE HERE TO SEE THIS CLEANSING PROCESS THAT THIS SYSTEM NEEDS THROUGH TO THE END.
And that job requires folk who know what the fuck they are fighting for, who the fuck they are fighting, and where those battles must be won.
I am going to end now, I just want some of you all to realize that pettiness hurts.............
I just want some of you all to realize that no matter how much bullshit you take me through, I am going to get my "Church" and pay my bills and be on with life. Not moving to no fucking Louisana because somebody got some land for us to grow on, if Delmar wants to go his choice, his loss........Dallas is my home, camp wisdom is my street, i got people all over this fucking nation, so if it ain't la or new york or boston why bother leaving family and friends because _________ trying to keep her hustle going. I'll get what I need, I'll have my bills paid, i'll be straight by the super bowl.
I just want some of you all to realize that it is hard to be dedicated to this struggle called the fight for our freedoms, and keep us in your prayers.
You don't have to be as open about fighting for your country as those mentioned, THE BLOWBACK IS REAL, I MEAN THE SHIT THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME, LOU DOBBS, PALIN we can't even mention half of the shit because it involves loved ones.
I am not asking for sympathy. I am just asking you to simply, go out and vote. Go out and vote for team members, that are team members. That will stick the mantra of the Team America. That can stay dedicated, that can get past their own pettiness when they see others on the playground before they get their turns(including myself.......)
Don't be Jerry Jones and let moss pass because of some petty shit, be the Vikings and willing to put the best player you can get on your team. Put the players who will look you in the eye and say, give me the ball, just put it up there, I'll get it. Put the players in who work harder in practice from start to finish just to set the tone for today.
Put the players that understand this precipt very succintly and precisely, those who eat the biggest plates eat last.
Put us in, let us get you to work, let us get you back to living how you are supposed to be living. Let us fuss and cuss and moan and stand and be discisiplined in only honoring your wants, needs and commands as the will of the people.
Put us in Coach America, put us in...............
Yeah, we human, we bitch, we moan, but only because we hurt when we see our teammates, our countrymen and women fucked over and can't do shit about it.
Put us in.........
Vikings win, why, there offensive line is a little better, romo panics, and jerry is going to have to learn the hard way about drafting jersey stars versus building a team, and I say that with love. The only chance they have is the only one we do. PUTTING IN THE PLAYERS THAT NEED TO BE AND SUPPORTING THEM PLAY BY PLAY.
take care, this is one of those I have feeling too and I need a hug days,
when I talk to you again, tomorrow, my vote will be cast.
EARLY VOTING STARTS TOMORROW IN DALLAS, GIVE DANNY CLANCY A CHANCE,
GIVE THIS COUNTRY A CHANCE,
PUT US IN, COACH,
PUT US IN................