Sunday, November 21, 2010

Had a little talk with Jesus........Pretty Girl Rock

Hello America,

How are you?  Decided to stay home and clean up my own house or at least try to.

Watched the cowboys game, YOU ARE ON YOUR WAY, BUT NOTHING CAN BE TAKEN FOR GRANTED, IMPROVE THOSE THIRD DOWN SITUATIONS, BUT YOU DIDN'T GIVE UP ON YOURSELVES.............

NEXT YOU GOT WHO NEW ORLEANES AND INDY..........PLAY BY PLAY, DOWN BY DOWN THAT'S THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN ACHIEVE YOUR GOALS, KEEP PLAYING.......

Well, a lot was said yesterday...........


Enough for MSNBC and CNN to spend a lot of their morning talk shows talking about Palin.

You know, I think Rep-Elect Lt. Kernel West hit it best on NBC's talk show this morning. 

The person, the candidate that will stand out on the right is the candidate who shows a signficant difference in regard to foreign public perception of this country.  I think that person has to be able to convey strength and no apologizing for this country.  I think that person has to do what John McCain talked about about no country, NO COUNTRY shaming us out of our rights and freedoms. If you are not doing this country right, the right is looking for a candidate to tell that country, hey man you not doing my people right...........

I think that will be the deciding factor, with north korea being nuclear as some of us have been hollering about for the last five or six years, IT'S A NO BRAINER WE WILL BE ATTACKED.  And I don't trust nor have I seen anything from the Obama adminstration besides feeling up some folk at the airport to sense that anything will be done about it outside of barack holding on to his shiny nobel peace prize and talking about turning the other cheek about 50 times.

You know it's bad when Roland Martin(yes, I watch Washington Watch, not all the time, but enough......) is defending Chairman Steele.  It not about racism or that Chairman Steele didn't serve his purpose, he raised a gang of cash, ran his mouth a little too much, but I can excuse all that.

IN MY OPINION, HE DID NOT DO ALL HE COULD HAVE TO HELP WHETHER JUSITIFED OR NOT ALL OF THE REPUBLICAN CANDIDATES, HE CHOSE TO FIRE PELOSI WHEN THE PEOPLE WANTED REID'S ASS GONE TOO..........  HE TOOK A DEAL, NOT MAD AT HIM, HE GOOD PEOPLE, BUT HE CANNOT BE TRUSTED TO BE IN CONTROL WITH AN ELECTION AS CRUCIAL AS 2012.

SORRY, NOTHING PERSONAL MR. MARTIN, LAST TIME I CHECKED I WAS AS BLACK AS YOUR PANEL TODAY........

HE RENIGGED, AND IT WILL NOT BE TOLERATED ON THE RIGHT. WHEN PEOPLE GIVE YOU THEIR MONEY, YOU GIVE YOUR ALL.  IT IS NOT YOUR JOB AS CHAIRMAN TO DETERMINE WHO SHOULD RUN, IT IS YOUR JOB TO HELP WHOMEVER THE PEOPLE CHOOSE TO RUN.

ROVE, O'RILEY, SOME OF YOU ALL NEED TO HAVE A REAL GUT CHECK, ARE YOU NOT GOING TO SUPPORT THE GOP TICKET IF PALIN HEADS IT..........

YOU GOING TO SUPPORT OBAMA BECAUSE OF SEXISM BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT IT BOILS DOWN TO.

NOT ONE PEEP ABOUT SAUDI ARABIA..........

DO NOT QUESTION PALIN ABOUT VETTING, SHE WAS NOT IN CHARGE OF IT.  NANCY PELOSI WAS IN CHARGE, OUR GOVERNMENT WAS IN CHARGE OF MAKING SURE THAT THE LEADER OF THE FREE WORLD WAS LEGIT AND YOU ALL DROPPED THE BALL.

AND IN FOLK LIKE ME MIND'S, YES, I KNOW HOW MANY GRAMMAR RULES I BROKE WITH THAT ONE, YOU ALL ARE TRAITORS...........

HELPING THE ENEMY THROUGH SHIT LIKE THE DREAM ACT, LETTING THESE FOLK VOTE, LETTING THESE FOLK TAKE JOBS WHEN THEY ARE CRIMINALS, BREAKING THE LAW IS BREAKING THE LAW.

IF THE 54 AVENUE HOOVER GANG, AND THE ROLLING SIXTY CRIPS(HEY FAMILY.!, YES, IT'S REAL LIKE THAT) TOLD ANY ADMINISTRATION, WE OUTNUMBER YOUR ASSES AND THERE AIN'T SHIT YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT, THEN WE WOULD SEE EVERY TYPE OF ASS-WHOOPING POSSIBLE FROM THE FBI,DEA, LAPD, LA COUNTY SHERIFFS, AND CHIPS TO SHOW THE WORLD AND THESE CRIMINALS THAT THEY DO NOT RUN THE STREETS.........

WHAT MAKES ILLEGAL AMERICA, ANY DIFFERENT?

RULES IS RULES, OR DOES THAT ONLY APPLY TO LEGAL AMERICAN CITIZENS........

IT SADDENS ME TO MY CORE, THAT GEORGE BUSH CAN WORRY ABOUT NOT STEPPING ON OBAMA'S TOES, AND WE DON'T HAVE ONE SINGLE LEADER ON THE RIGHT OR LEFT, TO SAY HEY THIS MOTHERFUCKER IS FUCKING UP OUR COUNTRY....

DAMN, W., HOW MUCH DID WE REALLY LOSE WITH SAUDI?  DID YOU BARGIN THE PRESIDENCY JUST SO WE WOULDN'T GET OUR ASS ATTACKED OVER HERE.....

NOT BEING FUNNY, DEAD SERIOUS, BECAUSE NOTHING SEEMS TO DETER THIS ADMINISTRATION, BARACK GETS CALLED ON NOTHING, AND WHEN HE FINALLY FUCKS UP SO BAD EVEN THE MEDIA GOT TO CALL IT, COUNT ON BILL O'RILEY, GEORGE W. BY LACK OF WORDS, OR MURKOWSKI TO COME RUNNING...........

to save wonder mike.........

It's fucked up, what can I say?  To me, America is the greatest country in the world, this spoken with a green card that was in my hands until it was stolen in 2000.  To me, ain't nothing worth selling out the freedoms.

I'll never be Donna Brazile, and she hurts because until Obama came someone I really admired, and yes, Ms. Brazile, you right, I'm young..........

But at the end of the day, character is determined by chronology, it is determined by the choices you have to make when no one is looking.

I will never condone the Obama administration, I will always consider it a coup and its leader as such.  I will always do whatever I can to ensure the freedoms that I assert this administration is so bent on taking.  But don't think no matter, how cool we are, that we as a people don't know YOU, DEMOCRATS, REPUBLICANS, AND INDEPDENDENTS LIKE LIBERMANN SOLD THIS COUNTRY OUT TO WHO? CHINA, RUSSIA, AND SAUDI ARABIA AND DESCRETATED THE VERY PROUD AND VITAL ROLE BLACK AMERICAN LEGAL CITIZENS HAVE PLAYED IN THIS COUNTRY......

YOU STABBED IN THE BACK, SO WHILE YOU ALL ARE RETIRING BITCHING ABOUT SOME OF YOUR PENSIONS BEING GONE, WHILE MY GENERATION TRIES TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO PAY FOR COLLEGE, HEALTH CARE, FIND A JOB AND WHAT WILL DO WITH NO SOCIAL SECURITY SAFETY NET......

REMEMBER WHAT THE BLOOD OF THOSE AFTER YOU SHED....................

JUST TO SAY YOU MADE HISTORY..................................

JUST TO SAY YOU GOT BACK AT THOSE EVIL WHITE PEOPLE.....................

JUST TO SAY THAT AMERICA GOT WHAT'S COMING TO IT...................

REMEMBER......................

b/c I will..........and people like me will and although we may not all wear it on a shirt, it is in our eyes, it is in our letters, it is in our hearts.  watch yourself............

And this is where the story begins.........



The other day God looked me up(you know I like to blend the metaphysical with humor so work with me, America) and God and a couple of his folk I feel like are angels in my life, let me have it...........

Basically told me some shit about myself......

some of it was warranted, most.....

some not.

So I called God back, Jesus answered the phone and said "Hey Tiffani, what's up? You don't holla at nobody, don't go to church, fellowship,nothing........""

I look at the phone, me and Jesus, we cool, but we ain't cool as we used to be. I feel like I am his father's creation and have no need to go through any other venue to find him except a look within in, Jesus and his folk obviously feel otherwise.

I reply" Man, on the cool, I ain't trying to have no problems with you, Jesus, I respect you, respect what you mean to folk and maybe if I wasn't such an analytical asshole most of the time, I probably would be in church. You know why I don't go, no need to pretend, I don't want to hear it. I don't want to hear about how I am messing up, I don't want have to make peace with nobody I feel like don't deserve it. I know it ain't right, but I am just being honest..........."

Jesus is quiet, this storm he and I has been brewing for awhile. We look at each other, in a plane where concepts such as time, minutes and hours are obsolete. He can tell I am not trying to be disrespectful, at least this time.

He says" Tiffani, you fucking up......."

I reply " I know........"

He asked " do you know why you fucking up?

I reply "b/c I'm scared of the greatness that boils in my blood, I don't want to be an bigger asshole than I already am. I don't want that shit to go to my head, I don't want to get out of hand, and we both know I can go there............"

Jesus nods gives a hmmph....

He gives me a hug, tells me he's proud.

I ask why?

He tells me "you got folk who love you, Tiffani, and you don't want to differentiate between lust and love right now. B/c lust don't ask shit of you, but love does........You got folk caring about you that gotta worry are you going to get your ass whopped, will one of these sinister plots and plans against you work, are the feds going to find a way to lock your black ass up, you got folk loving you, Tiffani and you too selfish to love them back by getting your shit together.

Now I know.............Me and Daddy know that's it more going on than you can comment on, but there are trials and tests you flunking because you don't want to hurt nobody's feelings, and when you pull shit like that you hurt everyone's feelings.......People love you and you can't be scared of Delmar knowing that, those folk who love you enough to cuss your black ass out, to not call the police on your ass THOSE MY BLESSINGS FOR YOU, TIFFANI CAN YOU SEE THAT?

NOW, all of them ain't on the up and up all the time, but you get my point. You gotta get out, do something for you, loving you don't mean you don't love nobody else. You gotta let the love i'm sending you, get to you, you hurting.....you ain't superwoman, but you can lasso some folk with those words......"

I smile, didn't feel like saying nothing.

St. Pete, Tupac, Nostradomus looking smiling, Tiffani has been coming up here for years, bringing hell in a handbasket literally. She's growing up. A beautiful sight for some, a day of reckoning for others.......

Jesus gives me a hug and dap. whispers in my ear, "my dad needs to talk to you."

I go to some of that Mahalia Jackson upper room.....(little gospel humor).

God speaks, I speak.

He says to me"You've done well, Tiffani, nowhere near done, but you handling yours right now, you growing, you trying to push yourself, but you can't do all of this by yourself. You can't sacrifice yourself for others.....I have you here for a reason, do you know how many bounties you put on your ass every time you post?"

We laugh, we really laugh.............

We sit and make jokes about me uniting the muslims, the democrats, the illegals and the gop and yet they call obama the antichrist..

We sit and we bullshit, in a place where time don't matter.

Then a silence prevails

God says" Tiffani there was a time where you would have bitched until I kicked you outta here........."

I reply "Why? my wants and needs ain't going to change shit. This your world right, this motherfucker gets to run around and cheat for the sake of "human rights" while your bible tells folk like to obey the law of the land and deal with the consequences.....I try to love, try to help folk, all I get is plots and plans and drama. fuck it, why bother, no disrespect"

God looks, he knows that I am not being mean, or disrespectful, just honest which is why he made me the way I am.

"Tiffani, I feel you.........Not going to lie or bullshit you that I have taken you through shit that ain't fair. I could have wrapped up that identity theft shit, but I haven't as of yet. I let a lot of shit test you and you failed, failed a lot, but your redemption lies in the fact that you don't quit for nobody."

"Sometimes, God, some shit, some folk ain't worth fighting for. I can't fight all of these motherfuckers, people with church stickers trying to run my black ass over because they over here illegally. What the fuck am I supposed to do? I make reports, I look at all this shit Obama gets away with, why beat myself up. If I wasn't so fucking principled, I could be listening to Wocka Flocka explain to me the concept of no hands, at a local strip bar with a blunt of kush and a purse full of cash........but that wasn't what you wanted when you let me out of the womb, was it God?

God looks again and thinks she's growing.........She's still pissed off at the assignment giving, but she's growing in giving, by giving the universe and him some of this massive amount of pressure she has on her for the battles he placed upon her......

"Tiffani, you know you fucked up. You should have gotten your ass kicked by keeping yourself in situations you know can cost you your life, but I know why you stay and frankly, you can't put that shit out there, so you gotta suck it up. You rant and rave about everybody else sometimes, might as well get used to it. B/c you have to stay until _______________ and you are going to end up _____________ and I can't promise you that all that you love are going to be there with you.

You gotta a good heart, you making the hell I wanted you to with Obama, just start to ___________________________. But you can't be afraid to merge the dynamic bad arrogant that you deem old Tiffani, with the new humbled to broken to hold your head up Tiffani. You can't be afraid to be the beautiful star that you are.

I sent some reminders of that..........The angels you have in your life love you, but in love you have obligations........Tiffani, you have the obligation to get your shit together, which you are, and stand up for yourself........."

I reply"Damn, God, saving this world from fabian socialism and the shit that motherfucker is bringing the fraud he hiding, the fraud you got my own people, GOD stabbing me in the fucking back........It takes a lot out of your day....All I am saying is I'm trying man, but damn....."

God looks, the visit is almost over. He looks at her and wonders is she cognizant of the change she is making over this nation. He looks at her thoughts and realizes that she is still really hurt over losing a friend....., he knows she is still really carrying a lot of hurt, but that it ain't time for crying nor meditation..... He sees the honest concern she has for the future of this country. He sees the will she possess from his grace to endure what it will take to restore this country to sanity.

He sees the leader he made her to be. He sees her slowly but surely trying to fill the shoes he has placed before her. He sees her ability each and every day to handle bullshit from known enemies with more grown woman and less cursing and fussing. But he also sees her need to cry on a shoulder, to get a chance to say hey this is why I couldn't talk right then..........He sees the childishness of how she used to react to these talks is gone, replaced with somber honesty of an adult.

He thinks of something to say, she's tired, she's constantly fucked with, for reasons, she don't even know yet. But yet and still, scared and all, she holds God's hand.......she don't let go, even when her heart wants her to.

God turns to Tiffani, he don't give her no hug, no deep last words, no nothing...........


But when I woke up, I had Keri Hilson song pretty girl rock in my head and my heart.

Uh uh uh aahh uh uh
I can do the pretty girl rock rock
Rock to the pretty girl rock rock rock
Now what’s your name

My name is Keri, I’m so very
Fly oh my is a little bit scary Boys wanna marry looking at my deri
And you can stare but if you touch then ima beri

Pretty as a picture
Sweeter than a swisher
Mad cause I’m cuter than the girl that is with ya


I ain’t gotta talk about it baby you can see it
But if you want ill be happy to repeat it

My name is Keri, I’m so very
Fly oh my is a little bit scary Boys wanna marry looking at my deri
And you can stare but if you touch it ima beri

Pretty as a picture Sweeter than a swisher
Mad cause I’m cuter than the girl that is with ya
I can talk about it cause I know that I’m pretty
If you know it too then ladies sing it with me

All eyes on me when I walk in,
No question that this girl’s a 10 Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful. Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful. My walk my talk the way I dress It’s not my fault so please don’t trip
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful

Aye, now do the pretty girl rock rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock rock rock Do the pretty girl rock rock
All my ladies do the pretty girl rock rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock rock rock Do the pretty girl rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock

Now were you at, If your looking for me you can catch me
Cameras flashing, daddies turned his head as soon as I passed him Girls think I’m conceded cause I think I’m attraction
Don’t worry about what I think why don’t you ask him

Owoaah!
Get yourself together don’t hate(don't do it), jealous is the ugliest trait(ohh, don't do it)
I can talk about it cause I know that I’m pretty
If you know it too then ladies sing it with me

All eyes on me when I walk in, No question that this girl’s a 10 Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful. Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful. My walk my talk the way I dress It’s not my fault so please don’t trip


Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful Doing the pretty girl rock rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock rock rock Do the pretty girl rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock rock
All my ladies do the pretty girl rock rock rock


Get along with your pretty girl rock rock rock
Still show me your pretty girl rock rock rock
All my ladies do the pretty girl rock rock rock Sing it with me now

All eyes on me when I walk in,
No question that this girl’s a 10 Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful. Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful. My walk my talk the way I dress It’s not my fault so please don’t trip
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful [x2]

Owoahaha!


Hating me because I'm beautiful will only result in you being left at the curb, obama administration, personal foes......

I'm beautiful because I am a creation of something that is bigger than even the bully pulpit.

My little talk with Jesus, told me yeah, you fucked up, but you get up, the love you think you lost ain't gone, just had to be taken away for a minute, to get me to realize that although I am winning the political wars of my life, if I didn't show that same courage and resiliance in my personal, all would be for naught........

Don't hate me because I'm beautiful, be thankful to God and the freedoms of this great country that I got my pretty girl rock.

And no man, no woman, no administration for that matter is going to take that away from me, ever again..........

Thank you, America,

that's all, the gop has to settle through my old posts, since I basically hit a home run with the dereliction of duty yesterday.........

Thanks, Ms. Hilson for the video......

Thanks, for all of THE STRONG WOMEN, ESPEICALLY STRONG BLACK WOMEN THAT SERVE AS ROLE MODELS even for little ole' loud mouth red devils like myself.

thanks for showing me it is okay to do me and get my pretty girl rock on....

take care, you gave to me today, America, and I needed it.

going to do me for a minute, i'll be back in one to two days

Russia, Palin, nor Obama is going to die before I get back.....
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