Sunday, December 12, 2010

Christmas Memories............Monday Distractions........

Hello America,

How are you?  Took some time for the family today. Today is my dad's birthday,  Happy Birthday John E. Mims, my aunt G. Pickett, my cousin A. Bowie.  Enjoy this very blessed day.

My mom picked me up this morning, had some christmas music on. From the Jackson 5, of course, Charles Brown, Nat King Cole, about 10 different versions of Noel, christmas time is here, Whitney Houston's Joy to the World(we miss you, I would love to get some music in your hands, Ms. Houston, your voice is missed.............), Donny Hathaway's This Christmas, and Otis Redding as well.

I was sitting in the back of my mom's car.  I have pretty strong intution, pretty strong.  I was looking out the car window as it was very early this morning, and I just thought of all the mornings I have seen in my life.  When I used to sell dope, my best time to gauge how the cut was going(using consumer attendance to judge the economic performance of a said area known for drug sales......) was like 4-6am in the morning.  To me, that is when you can tell the truth of a street.

Is it quiet?  Are there people going to work?  Children out?  People coming to score that type of thing.  When I heard that Christmas music, I wanted to cry a little.  Me and God and St. Pete got a bet of how long will it be before I cry.  Every woman needs to cry, sometimes.  I am just one of those women who cries after the situation is resolved.  But I haven't yet.  I need to, I need to, but I can't.  First of all, I can't be seen in public crying like some little girl.  Secondly, I haven't because to cry means to admit what is going on and that would acting like a big girl..........(sarcasm intended).

So I hold all of this in as memories flood my mind.  Whitney got the tears rolling, but Otis almost took it out of there.......I've spent many chrismas morning in Dallas, playing with toys crying because my mama had to go to work.  hospitals don't have a day off.  I've spent Christmas living in a car..............Spent Christmas in jail, shout out to those who get that one piece of halfway familiar meat on Christmas....Shoutout to all my people homeless, locked up.  I've been there. 

I've spent Christmas on the road in many states........Lot of Christmas memories.  Those memories started tugging at me, reminding me of a time when life was simple.  It is those memories that make me want to ensure each and every parent that chooses to is able to provide those memories for their child.  Because those christmas memories each in their own way, humbles me, empowers me, reminds me of what this season is about.

The King of Isreal.........Santa Claus, however, you want to call it, so be it. 

BUT IT IS CHRISTMAS, CHRISTMAS MY DEAR A TIME OF YEAR TO BE WITH THE ONES YOU LOVE..........at least according to Charles Brown.

You got some people locked up, send them a letter. Even if it says I am mad at you for not being here.  You got some people in the military send them something.  You got people in a nursing home, send them something.  You got people out there on skid row.  take them a plate.

THIS IS OUR TIME OF YEAR AND FROM THE HOLIDAY BOMBINGS TO BARACK AND CREW PULLING THIS MESS TO ENSURE THAT THIS IS THE WORST ECONOMIC CHRISTMAS TO DATE BECAUSE HIM AND MICHELLE DON'T BELIEVE IN BUYING KIDS TOYS........

REPRESENT, FOR SANTA.......FOR JESUS...........FOR WRAPPING PAPER.........FOR CHRISTMAS TREES...........

FOR THE MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE THIS TIME OF THE YEAR,

THE CHILDREN...........

WE HAVE THE MOST LOVING PRODUCTIVE CITIZENS ON EARTH, BECAUSE THINGS IN OUR CULTURE LIKE CHRISTMAS(learn something, Barack............)INSTILL GOOD WILL AND GOOD CHEER IN OUR BABIES.

I write in bold because it's easier on my eyes.  I sat back in that car, holding back tears listening to my mom listening to the music.  It's painful and hurts so bad because I gotta go home.  I gotta go back.  I looked at every inch of highway 67, I am making a concerted effort to do all that I can to pack this christmas with memories because I can't be here next year.......

My life has taken a turn.  I held my newest nephew.  I am going to church with my chief of staff, my friend because her candor enrages and teaches me at the same time, but her grace and acceptance reminds me to take care of me, first and foremost.  I helped my parents with Christmas decorations.  We grown folk, we use the children of our lives to say peace at least for a little while.

I looked through that car window, although I drive now, I won't be too much longer.  First of all, I can't see that well, and second of all, it is going to get to a point pretty quickly for security sake, I will have a driver.  Not about being rich.  More about the fact that I need to start thinking about security for real, and can you believe because of a marijuana charge, I can't even arm myself.

I accepted the fact that there are going to many different scenes I am going to see through car windows.  From the beltway............to malibu....................to dallas...............to okc.  It took everything in me to survive that car ride without breaking down and bawling.  Because I know once I leave, I am not coming back.  I love Texas..........

But Texas don't love me enough to stop this identity theft, so I gotta leave and pack all these memories, all the love I have from friends and family somewhere in that clunker called my heart. 

And this is where we begin today...........

I am starting a new chapter in my life.  My birthday is coming, today is the day I was supposed to be born.  Maybe I was running late as usual, enjoying all the holiday fesitivities.........I don't know, this time of the year is electric for me.It's like from day one, I was born in winter so I inherently understood the limitations of winter so I spend my summers putting in work.  Not going to be the grasshopper in the cold.

The usual drama starts with the usual suspects.  I have given the responsiblity of handling certain individuals to God.  Nothing I do or don't is going to get a couple of key individuals to understand God has removed all need for you in my life and for that I am thankful and so should you, America.

I cried so hard inside, so hard.............And as the sun came up, I had to turn it on my music to remind me of home.  So I put on my t. cruz saying hey yooooooooooo time to let goooooooooooo, Kate Perry California Girls, that type of thing to cheer me up a little.It sucks a little always having to be the one who leaves.

But if i don't, this fraud will never stop and I will never have a job down here, too many people are comfortable with me just running errands, barely making it by.  I can't live like that, not by choice, nor do I want that for you, America.

I was going to write earlier, but you know what i did, kicked it with my newest nephew. Sang some stupid auntie songs.  I sing to all my nephews on one side.  Made a chocolate fudge cake for my dad.........

Some temporary drama tried to intervene to prevent me from writing today, but I handled that with such speed and grace not even worth mentioning outside of that.

I hurt some feelings yesterday,  some of us planned a campaign on just do the opposite of what that crazy, loud-mouth person does. 

Nah........................that was 2008-2010,  we on to some new now.

It's weird because I never really think of myself as a voice, why I don't know.  It's like having all these connections and I purposely keep them not connected so I won't have to go into the accountability, character and responsiblity thing, but I want to lead, I want responsibility and those things come with it.  I checked............they do...........

So as I am "calming" down at least according to my written words, it's weird, opening a new branch of friends, of networks, helping connect with old friends, and old new friends, if there is such a thing.  I can see sprouts of Delmar's faith not necessarily in God, but in just good coming to good and in the fact that I am going to be here for him...........that's pretty cool.

I can hear the collective sighs from above...................that slowly but surely the tempest called Tiffani is waning down at least in that realm.

So here's a breakdown of monday distractions and some side notes, since I just crucified Obama's plan yesterday,..........

Did you see how I did Money Mitch? 

Palin-You all can follow this woman and her children, everywhere but to HAITI, HUH?  SHOW THE HAITI FOLK SOME LOVE, GIVE PALIN SOME PROPS, NOW I KNOW THAT RICH PEOPLE, AND WHITE PEOPLE THAT AIN'T COOL WITH BARACK ARE THE ENEMY, SO THAT MEANS THAT RICH PEOPLE THAT ARE WHITE AND NOT COOL WITH BARACK REALLY POSSESS A TERROR THREAT, but out of all the places she could have been, give this woman some props for visiting Haiti. 

I just asked her to go see somewhere. I was thinking more of like Russia or Georgia.  SO COOL BEANS, GOV. PALIN..............COOL BEANS INDEED.  reminded me of what is going on still with Haiti, the gulf coast because they are just as shut down......

Steele-HE COULD HAVE COME OUT AT ANYTIME AND MADE HIS STATEMENT, BUT AS A FAVOR TO BARACK, HE IS DOING IT TOMORROW TO SERVE AS A DISTRACTION FROM TOMORROW'S SENATE VOTE.

PEOPLE, OUTSIDE OF THE RNC AND VOTING MEMBERS...............THIS IS NOT NEWS.............

IT DOESN'T MATTER.............

HE WON'T BE BACK.................

HE WILL NOT HOLD THE GOP HOSTAGE BEHIND RACE, ALTHOUGH I CAN'T SAY IT PUBLICALLY, I AM THE N-WORD AND MORE WHEN NEEDED.  STEELE YOU NOT GOING TO SHAME NOBODY FOR NOTHING.  NOT REALLY CONCERNED ABOUT THE LITTLE DEAL YOU WONDER MIKE, AND JOHN MCCAIN GOT GOING RIGHT NOW.

DON'T EMPOWER THE BULL.  LET HIM MAKE HIS SPEECH, IF HE WANTS TO RUN COOL.........

IF HE DON'T, COOL..............

HE'S OUT, AND THAT'S ALL.

NOT WORRIED ABOUT JET MAGAZINE NOR ROLAND MARTIN'S OPINION ON THIS...........

THIS GOP/TEA PARTY BUSINESS.

NPR-Baby, we don't have a budget.....................priorities.............see through the distractions.........

Obama-HE LOVES TAKING CREDIT SO MUCH CAN HE TAKE CREDIT NOW FOR TWO YEARS INTO HIS SUPPOSED ADMINISTRATION OR IS IT ALL STILL BUSH'S FAULT?

HE LOVES HIMSELF, HE TAKES ALL THE CREDIT, NONE OF THE BLAME, SO WHY EVEN BE SUPRISED HE IS PATTING HIMSELF ON THE BACK FOR THIS COMPROMISE HE DIDN'T EVEN RUN BY THE PERSON WHO HAS HAD HIS BACK FOR THAN ANYBODY nancy pelosi.  HE IS FULL OF HIMSELF AND HE PROVES THAT TIME AND TIME AGAIN.

HE USED A PRESS CONFERENCE TO REMIND AMERICA HOW HE CAN FULFILL PROMISES TO HIS WIFE, BUT HE WON'T FULFILL A PROMISE TO NATIONAL SECURITY......

BECAUSE WHEN THE MONEY IS FUNNY, THE SECURITY IS FUNNY TOO.

IRAN HAS A BASE OF WEAPONS IN VENEZUELA, THEY CAN ATTACK ISREAL AND THE US AT THE SAME TIME............

Supreme Court-I THINK THEY SHOULD SHOW UP FOR STATE OF THE UNION ADDRESSES IN NORMAL SITUATIONS, BUT IN CONSIDERATION OF THE FACT THAT THERE ARE STILL PENDING CASES INVOLVING BARACK DIRECTLY AND HIS RECORDS.........I APPALUAD THE SCOTUS FOR NOT GOING, SORRY BREYER, THIS COURT MAY HAVE TO UPHOLD AN IMPEACHMENT..........

AND SINCE BARACK BY HIS OWN ADMISSION IS A "DEAL MAKER" NO NEED FOR ANY POSSIBLE IMPROPRIETY..........

DISTRACTIONS.............

Isreal-SAYS THEY AIN'T SHARING THE STRIP...................THAT'S THEIR BUSINESS.......WE STILL GOT THEIR BACK.  DISTRACTIONS...........DISTRACTIONS......

Tax Policy/Obama-THE TAX RATE WILL NOT BE CHANGED............PLEASE........84% INCREASE IN SPENDING, SUPERCEDING CONGRESS THROUGH CZARS, OBAMACARE, SEALING RECORDS.....DISTRACTIONS........

WE WON'T REALLY HAVE TO DO TOO MUCH IF WE ENFORCE WORKPLACE RAIDS, DEPORT THESE FOLK, BEEF UP OUR BORDER,

MAYBE SOMETHING LIKE .................

THOSE PEOPLE WHO GO OUT AND DO STUFF..............

MAYBE LEGAL AMERICAN CITIZENS CAN WORK AND CONTRIBUTE TO THE GDP IN OTHER MEANS BESIDES SPENDING TWO DOLLARS AT WAL-MART TO CASH AN UMEMPLOYMENT CHECK FOR TWO FIFTY AND MAKING BOOST MOBILE SOME MONEY WHILE ONE STAYS ON THE PHONE MAKING PAYMENT ARRANGEMENTS FOR UTILITIES........

Meg Whitman-MS. WHITMAN MAYBE IF YOU HAD LISTENED TO FOLK LIKE ME, YOU WOULD HAVE WON TO BE IN A POSITION TO QUESTION GOV. PALIN..........MAYBE LIKE LEGALIZING AND SUPPORTING THAT PROP WOULD HAVE PUT YOU OVER.

THE REASON WHY PALIN QUIT IS BECAUSE OBAMA WAS GOING TO COME WITH BS LAWSUIT AFTER BS LAWSUIT........

YOU SPENT ALL THAT MONEY AND YOUR FIRST PUBLIC STATEMENT IS ON PALIN?

DARN................(IT DON'T SOUND RIGHT, i KNOW.....I KNOW BUT I CAN'T CURSE ANYMORE.........) ARE YOU THAT BROKE?

DID BARACK WRITE YOU THAT CHECK TO JUST MENTION PALIN'S QUITTING THE FIRST TIME SOMEONE GAVE YOU A MICROPHONE?

DO CALIFORNIA AND AMERICA A FAVOR, STOP HIRING ILLEGAL IMMIGRANTS AND WRITE GLORIA ALLBRIGHT A CHECK SO WE CAN DEPORT YOUR HOUSESITTER?

YOU LOST BECAUSE YOU TRY TO PLAY BOTH SIDES.............

GO BACK TO THE BOARDROOM, KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF OF YOUR AIDES........

LET BIG GIRLS RUN BIG GIRL BUSINESS.......

LEAVING THAT POST WAS THE BEST THING FOR PALIN AND AMERICA AND ALASKA, BECAUSE AS LONG AS SHE WAS THERE, OBAMA WASN'T GOING TO SHOW ALASKA NO LOVE.

SHE'S NOT EVEN A CANDIDATE AND YOU ALL STILL CAN'T FIND A WAY TO KEEP HER NAME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH.

DO YOU ALL EVEN REALIZE THAT ANOTHER RANCHER GOT KILLED IN ARIZONA?

FOCUS ON IMMIGRATION, MS. WHITMAN BECAUSE IT IS FOLK LIKE YOU THAT IS PART OF THE PROBLEM.........

Rep. Paul Ryan-BABY, WE GOT YOUR BACK..................WHAT YOU NEED CUTS, CONTROL, REFORM...........PUT IT OUT THERE THROUGH THEHILL, JOHNATHAN G. AND TOWNHALL OR POLITICO...........WE GOT YOU, BOO.............JUST LET US KNOW.  YOU WILL HAVE ALL THE SUPPORT YOU NEED. 

When you get the time can you make some charts or something when you talking on C-Span?  I just think they help common folk like myself understand.........

But we got you.

Will someone tell Rep. Nadler that the GOP is certaintly not gangsta.................

if they were, Obama wouldn't be in the oval office, he, pelosi, and reid would be lumped on the front lawn and I would be taking "hood" fees from Rep. Nadler.

You democrats are just going to have to take your losses, y'all don't want nor need to see gangstas and terrorists not on the political level.

Come down here to the camp, smoke one and talk to me, let me walk you down the streets...........

I'll give you all the gangsta and hostage situations, you can take...........

NO TAX DEAL WITH ALL OF THESE SWEETNERS...............

MAKE IT SIMPLE, MONEY MITCH.  EXTEND ALL TAX CREDITS...........

NO ESTATE TAX NO DEAL...............

NO DREAM ACT................

NO START.......................

NO SIDE DEALS ON FEDERAL JUDGES, DON'T HELP REID RAM THESE FOLK THROUGH.........

LOOK AT SOTOMAYOR AND KAGAN, THOSE TWO CHOICES DEMAND THAT WE REVIEW ALL JUDGES NOMINATION............

A BUDGET, PREVENTION OF ALL TAX HIKES FOR EVERYONE AND GO HOME.

EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING ELSE IS A DISTRACTION..............

That is all.

I'm getting better, huh?  I feel a little different to. Starting to feel a little peace.

I'll be back tomorrow.  Singing my dad happy birthday and making some more of these D-town memories.

Because I gotta go back home..............

where the water is a blue as ice, and the lost souls can rest............at least for a little while.

i'll be back tomorrow.
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