Sunday, December 26, 2010

The Day After Part 2

Hello America,

How are you?  Rarely will I write this late, but because of the security threat elevation if you will yesterday, just wanted to share a couple of notes.

Tiffani, was it really that serious about you making it to church today?  Yes, I got the bruises and chest congestion to prove it...................

There are some battles that need not be televised, but the damage from them is just as real as it is on the battlefield in each and every one of our lives.........

I joined church today, I made a pledge to rededicate my life to the Lord..........

Am I going to change overnight?  Am I going to change at all?  I can't answer that, I don't know.

My sole intention of joining church today was today was totally personal in nature.

Every day, I am getting hit in one way or another, the blows don't have necessarily be physical in nature to have consequences.  And every day, I try...........I get up, look for a job, try to walk the path the best I can, every day.

And every day, I asked God, and for those who are new to the page, THIS IS A STORY, I DON'T NEED A MAILBOX FULL OF DEATH THREATS SAYING I AM USING THE LORD'S WORDS IN VAIN...............Don't you know from the person who is writing this, to the one reading it and all the technological innovations in between, I assert are his creations, his alone, so how can I ever use his words in vain, when I am using how he used my life to let someone know it's okay.

So let's have a short story, and I'll be back later, there will be some changes in this blog and in about 6 months because I have to get the money to do it, this will become a syndicated column, this site will be reserved for those whose campaigns I work on, tea party folk, gop folk, actually some dem folk.  Basically, this site will be converted back to a professional's politicians page, as far as policy that type of thing.  Kind of like that cloud thing on the commercials with windows, but different IT aspects, a long story, a longer job description and a higher salary from some IT folk,

but I digress..........

I got up with the intention of being on time to church, got shot down by something the pastor referred to as friendly fire......got shot a couple of times.

God picks me up, dusts me off, and says Tiffani you don't have to do anything to prove anything to me..........

I tell him I know, but I want to go to church anyway.

Brother Beck asked some of us to make a pledge for forty days, I didn't do that.  I have my own thing, the exact 30 days before my birth is my lent.....

But I thought about the premise of what he was talking about and decided that I needed to build a stronger foundation:

Faith, fellowship, and freedom.

Faith- to me means walking the walk because I have talked the talk, I PURPOSELY PUT YOU IN MY BUSINESS........NOT BECAUSE I AM GOING TO WALK PERFECT STEPS ON PERFECT PATHS..........No, I put you in mine because I want you all to see how a new generation public servant is built, what it will take for the new breed of politicians to withstand and hold onto to princples.

In short that means.........

Will I ever curse again?  I don't know, watching Cowboys games don't help(I can't say _'em, Aggies, McGhee, but I can tell the world every single aggie I KNOW, THE ONES I CAN'T STAND THE ONES I LOVE IS NOTHING BUT ON POINT WITH THE MISSION THEY HAVE AT HAND...........BROTHER I HAVE BEEN WAITING ALL SEASON FOR YOU TO SHOW UP, LET HIM PLAY VICK, LET WARE RUN HIM AROUND FOR PRACTICE, let Bennett get some love, no disrespect to witten but that's not fair to the offense, the defense, and the city of Dallas for everyone to know that he is going to be the only receiver)......

How could I ever respect the power of the word unless I violated in ways I don't think Webster intended?

Am I going to marry Delmar?  I was going to anyway, but joining church is not going to hasten when I decide to it that would be hypocritical..........I wanted to get married when I could mean all of the vows and felt like Delmar meant them to?

sometimes, you don't appreciate the sanctity of marriage until you go through the chaos of divorce..........

How else would I have learned what making love was and the honor of having a spouse unless I spent some time dealing with issues of lust and non-godly approved living arrangements?

Living in sin?  Although I haven't done anything consciously, I probably have already broken at least 4 rules or commandments this morning.........My point of it is joining church don't make you perfect, it is just the opposite it is an admission of imperfection.  Sometimes, there is strength in numbers......

How else could I appreciate the fact of having others help you unless I spent 19 years of doing some things by myself.....?

What else, medicinal marijuana?  I have seen people die of AIDS...........I have the educational background so I will not be lumped into the cheech and chong categories.  I study the effects of THC and its interaction with cannaboid receptors in the brain and what physiological and psychological effects are to be had.  Medicinal Marijuana helps people.  Yes, I know the bible says obey the laws of man............I do, although I may have to move back to California to fulfill that in enterity.  The relapse rates for meth and ice are over 95%, My point is that I have seen too much, been through too much, to just write off a viable therapeutic intervention for AIDS, cancer.  I can't look someone in the eye with stage 4 breast cancer and going through the rigors of chemo and say I can't give you this. I can't help you.........

That's not me, and God has control now, so by allowing to breathe and do all of the bodily functions it takes to write, that is my jusitifcation for my acts.  Not trying to break the law, trying to change it.  PTSD, GAD, so many diseases that can be helped by medicinal marijuana.

How can I be raised by a nurse and a man who still volunteers every day to this day and not want to help in my own way?

It took getting high to know the benefits of sobriety.........

Medicinal Marijuana is not about getting high, it is about alleviation of symptoms.

Politics?  is joining church going to change my political ideology, No.  But if it did, I guarantee that is a mirace that Mr. and Mrs. Obama would run to church for( since when do I not throw barbs at someone.......big smile).  Actually, joining church strengths my ideology.  God accepts all, Jesus said as long as you come through me.........

that sentiment is enough for me, I don't ask for anything else.

I believe in pro-choice because I believe that is the choice of the individual that God blessed with the choice to make..............

I believe in the traditional form of marriage and its legal protection not because I don't think homosexuality is wrong.......  I have had friends beat themselves up for something they believe is them, baby I save all that for God, his alter is big enough to fit everybody.  No need to do his job, however, I can say that I believe that marriage is the manifestation of the unique balance of man and woman and that it provides legal protection for the biological parents.......

my two cents.

Well, you get the point.

I'll be back tomorrow, not feeling well.

But the only thing that is assured to change is how I deal with problems.

someone said in church, when you win the battles of words, you win the battle.........

now it may take a little thing called a voluntary gag order, but I get the point......

and so we will we as a nation, just not today.

take care.
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