yes, i'm back, the new part is after the line.........
I am going to have two posts today, what will happen is that at a certain time, I have to stop and then in about an hour or so, I will continue. I have to release the first part just to show where my head is at today, the more you climb up this ladder the more accountable you are for words, and the more you have to clarify......explain.......all this type of stuff.
Today is Valentine's Day I spent my morning with Delmar, hanging out, talking, enjoying this blessed day. We are reaching a different point in our relationship. The dynamics have changed, Delmar is enjoying life and that's a blessing in itself, and at the same time, I am starting to make a concerted effort to have balance because there are things I want to do.
I see in his eyes the worry, I see and hear in his voice, his need to control not necessarily me, but trying to control things for the sake of loved ones. With the infusion of control, there can be no balance. It serves as the metaphysical oxymoron, you know.
I am looking better, I am feeling better, I am getting ready to be deemed worthy to meet co-workers, and his friends, and that type of thing. That's cool and I'm glad. It's also time for me to start hanging out with my crew, and I am a multiple homegirl, lunch type lady. I may have 10 power lunches in a week, just hanging, talking, networking.
I also go out.............What can I say, I don't have children. I love Delmar and of course, I want a child, but at this time in my life for a variety of reasons, that is not my reality right now. I see the worry and the concern of Delmar and my family, will I be able to balance? Hopefully, so, but in that sense, I am going to enjoy my life. What does all this have to do with the budget?
There are those who still to this day, just can't stop trying to keep a fascade going...........Trying to find ways to show connections between themselves and I. I can't balance these folk into my life. I can't balance folk who played games with my life just to have a little extra bread for a okay car and a house they can't afford. I can't balance as I am getting family reunion requests being in folk face that I KNOW CALLED THE POLICE ON ME. I am not that strong. Life is too short. They not that important.
I think before one can find balance, one must find out what things one can budget, what things one can budge on.............. I assert that this mantra is true be it fiscally or spiritually. I have NEVER BEEN ABLE TO GO OUT LIKE I WANT, AND YES, I AM GOING OUT WITH MY GIRLS AND HAVING FUN. I am going out on dates with delmar from time to time. But I am hanging with my girls, with my people and those circles are already closed.
Why? B/c I have budged on my appearance, my "dignity" some would say for the sake of freedom, for the sake of justice, I have budged on my physical health, but I will not budge on the right to enjoy myself. I have done enough soul searching to know that about myself I have done enough soul searching to know when I get some money, I am going to get me an S-class. Not about prestige about what I want, and I am talking about months versus years. Not going to apologize, not worried about your questions....
My phone is tapped, my computer is hacked constantly, I am under surveilliance in some way or another for the rest of my life. I can't live my life in fear, I can't live my life around the wishes of others trying to still hold on to parts of my life, things that don't belong to them.
I am not superwoman, I am not Jesus, I love the Lord and yes, he heard my cry, but it wasn't to have the courage, nor strength nor stamania to deal with those I have cut off from my life. I only have so much energy, and I have to budget my time and invest on things that reward and profit me.
Budget, Budging and Balance is where class will start in about an hour. I have to go right now. But I just want some of you all, especially personally, to see where I am headed. I got my Chris Brown on..................Look at me now, I am starting to have paper. Not off Obama's name, Not off Delmar's street cred, but because I chose to hold God's hand and he ain't let it go yet.
Let me make it, Let me enjoy myself, don't waste time hating and trying to become a part of mine. That goes for in-laws,family and yes, some friends. That's the way it is. When you only have so much, you have to make hard choices.
be back in an hour. the united states debt = the entire gdp of this country.
hope and change, the gift that just keeps on giving........
be back in an hour, go get lunch
During this time, I thought about what to say. It's obvious through an honest review of this budget from the Obama administration that it is simply a reflection of what hope and change means in tangible terms: backdoor wheeling and dealing, keeping campaign promises in direct conflict of the mandate that was expressed last november through the will of legal American citizens.
But who am I? Just dumb little ole' Tiffani, too bitter and blind to see the merits of Wonder Mike in all his essence( I listen to the comments.........).
Barack has decided that he is not going to budge on executive order #13489, he is not going to budge on the fact that he seems to think because he had the approval of geo-political entities and the support of the global media conglomerate and the implicit approval of him being in office with knowledge of citizenship issues by George W. Bush....................
Folk like me are supposed to play dumb.
I have decided that I will budge on my view of the role of government vs. that of the private sector in regards to employment, how we school our children, what we feed our children, what we allow our children to see. I am not going to budge on preventing a man raised in one of the most sexist, hostile, child endangering societies on earth from telling my child when she or he can learn about oral sex..........
I'm just not. Nor is he.
So I prayed what to do, and God told me to ask someone who looks at numbers.
So I offer the words of Rep. Paul Ryan, aka Captain Crunch. Ready to assess these numbers like melanie and derwin will do their marriage on the game, tomorrow. http://www.bet.com/ for showtimes.
“The President’s budget spends too much, taxes too much, and borrows too much – stifling job growth today and leaving our children with a diminished future. In this critical test of leadership, the President has failed to tackle the urgent fiscal and economic threats before us.”
“Failing to heed the warnings of economists and the demands of the American people, the President’s budget accelerates our country down the path to bankruptcy. Far from ‘living within its means,’ the President’s budget puts the government on track to nearly double in size since the day he took office – a direct result of his party’s reckless spending spree. His budget destroys jobs by imposing a $1.6 trillion tax hike, adding $13 trillion to the national debt and fueling uncertainty in the private sector.
“We cannot tax, spend and borrow our way to prosperity. Where the President has fallen short, Republicans will work to chart a new course – advancing a path to prosperity by cutting spending, keeping taxes low, reforming government, and rising to meet the challenges of our time.”
Key facts from President Obama’s Fiscal Year 2012 Budget:
•Spends Too Much
◦$3.8 trillion in spending this year; 25.3% of GDP (highest since WWII)
◦$46 trillion in spending over the decade; $8.7 trillion in new spending
•Taxes Too Much
◦$1.6 trillion tax hike on families, small businesses, and job creators
◦Revenues as a percent of GDP climb to 20%
•Borrows Too Much
◦$1.6 trillion deficit for FY2012; a record third straight trillion dollar deficit
◦Doubles and then triples debt held by the public since President took office
◦$13 trillion added to the debt over the decade
For a bicameral budget analysis from the Senate and House Budget Committee Republicans: http://budget.house.gov/News/DocumentSingle.aspx?DocumentID=224882
HOW SIMPLIER CAN HE MAKE IT. A RECORD THIRD STRAIGH YEAR OF TRILLION DOLLAR DEFICITS, AND THIS UNDER THE GREAT DEMOCRATIC CONGRESS AND PRESIDENT.
OUR DEBT HAS DOUBLED AND NOW ON THE VERGE OF TRIPLING........
BOY THAT HOPE AND CHANGE SURE SOLVED THAT ECONOMIC CRISIS OF 2008 WITH AN ECONOMIC FAILURE IN 2011.
9 TRILLION IN NEW SPENDING.......
YOU READ HIS STATEMENT. MY POINT IS THAT WHEN MAKING A BUDGET, YOU HAVE TO KNOW YOUR BUDGE POINTS, AND DESPITE THE OBVIOUS NO, SHELLALCKING OR WHATEVER YOU WANT TO CALL IT,
THIS PRESIDENT HAS NOT STOPPED SPENING, NOT STOPPED HIRINT, HASN'T STOPPED IMPLEMENTING AN UNCONSITUTIONAL BILL.........
HE IS NOT WILLING TO BUDGE ON ANYTHING,
SO NOR WILL I OR THE GOP.
SHUTDOWN, CUTOFF, IT IS ALL ON THE TABLE.
WE HAVE A SPENDING ADDICT, AND WE ARE GOING TO PERFORM A FISCAL INTERVENTION OF SAYING NO MORE............
DID HE REDUCE THE BUDGET FOR HIS WIFE? FOR THESE EXTRAVAGANT TRIPS.
SUPPORT THE DISCLOSURE OF PUBLIC EMPLOYEE PENSIONS, WE PAY THEM, WE DESERVE TO KNOW EVERYTHING THEY ARE GETTING.
AND GET READY, BECAUSE IT'S BEAUTIFUL OUTSIDE, GOING HOME AND ENJOYING AN OFF DAY WITH THE LOVE OF MY LIFE..........
I'M NOT WILLING TO BUDGE THE WILL OF THE PEOPLE FOR THE WHIMS OF THE ELITE AND SOCIALISTS WHO THOUGHT THE AVERAGE LEGAL AMERICAN CITIZENS WAS TOO DUMB TO UNDERSTAND THAT FISCAL COUP THAT IS GOING ON.......
IT'S ALL ABOUT THE NUMBERS.
it's the book of paul, and numbers don't lie.