I am sorry. You know how it is when you eat a little something then your appetite comes out like some beast.......That's where I am at, but I am going to write first. I just had a pack of ramen noodles, so that should hold, haven't taken my meds today.
I apologize for the delay, I apologize for the last week. I am human, I know.........I know.........I didn't believe it myself, but I saw a grey hair where I don't think God intended it to be. Get your mind out of the gutter, my head....My head. I laugh as I say this because there is a part of me that will always be a little girl, things like getting older resonate to me, but not really.
When I saw that grey hair, I was a little hurt. Not in a bad way, sometimes sobriety isn't the solution for sanity......say that three times without slurring :)
No all bs aside, I had to get somethings in order in my own life.
The weird part of it is, I don't advertise this site. I beg my friends not to read it, I have a little twitter following, a small one , but there @tmims50 if you ever want to join in on the fun, I follow those who follow me, but I don't have any references to this site outside of a link. I don't even put it up on facebook. I guess my need to control at times influences my decisions for even situations like these.
This is the final chapter in the book of reporters, I took some time off yesterday to think of where we are headed next, what did I learn from this chapter as far as writing, where do I want to head as this base is expanding. I have new things and new projects that I am really serious about.
So let's go with this today, as I have written some notes in my head, but I don't have a draft today. Just going to write, you all are going to read and then we go from there. A story, a true story, some discussion about issues, through two sites today, townhall daily, and politico, won today, and some just real talk. Can we do that?
After God gave me that airto to listen to and some food for thought. I sat outside that spritiual NA for a long time after he left............A pretty long time.
I just let a lot go, not even crying, you know, just letting it go. Accepting the things I cannot change, you know the prayer......And I did which shocked the heck out of me. I mean it's hard to explain, but just like the old spirtiuals say, he took it away......
I went home, and remember we still in the metaphysical realm, I went home and I looked myself in the mirror. And I had a very adult conversation with myself, not because the issues were grown, but adult issues..........And just kept it very real with myself. I thought about writing yesterday, I could have. I wasn't in any danger, Delmar didn't have me in a headlock like Ike Turner, saying girl you can't write........(let me laugh for a moment......).
Nah, I asked myself in that mirror, who am i? not the beanie man song. But seriously asked myself, who am I? in the end, who am I doing this for? It can't be for family, because in some ways it is just me. It can't be just for the sake of this country, WHICH I LOVE, WHICH I LOVE. because it is the same government that I take so many shots for to protect which allows the identity theft of my name to continue..........
Who am I? At the end of the day when everything is going wrong, and everyone is gone, why am I doing what I am doing and who am I doing it for..............Who am I?
I can't discuss the answer to this question in the detail I would like on here. It simply does not work that way. But what I can share from you is that looking in that mirror, I saw myself not for who I wanted to be, not what I thought I should be, but for what I am, and it wasn't half bad :)
There has been so many tosses and turns that I could waste your day and my day with all these crazy, but really true stories........But why.........It only lends to the "She crazy" or "she too weak" or whatever statements b/c I can't share all my life with you. It is just a blog. Just a blog. Trying to be a voice with literally millions of folk screaming louder than you are for attention.
I have no choice but to take notice when those around me start to "get it." Start understanding that my life is here on this simple avenue. So I did what I needed to do, and I came out of that dream stronger, wiser, and more determined than EVER, THAN EVER........TO WALK THIS PATH. Gov. Palin, Speaker Boehner, I know times are rough..........
I know, there are supposed to be. We are at war from within, bullets not supposed to fly? causalities ain't supposed to happen? But as long as I am breathing.........DO YOU UNDERSTAND AS LONG AS THERE IS BREATH IN MY BODY, AS LONG AS MY CAPALLARIES STILL CONTINUE TO EXCHANGE OXYGEN AND OTHER BASIC COMPOUNDS TO GET TO MY CELL WALLS THROUGH THE CYTOPLASM USING THE MITOCHONDRA my god has blessed me with?
I go on.........
And by default, Gov. Palin and Speaker Boehner, especially.......so must you.
Ain't no lounging in war times.
I didn't talk to much to God yesterday, but he was there. He heard what I said to myself, I saw the links of things and people to my past, I let go of. He was there. I could feel him there, and we both knew it. But sometimes ain't the time for words. At least not on this blog.
When I got through, he smiled. He looked over my shoulder. So cheesy that I could feel the rays of the sun upon my face.....He patted my shoulder and told me to watch the game last night and I did.
That's the story, that's the thing with true stories, they don't always have a climatic ending, but it provides a place to start today.
The fact that the game only got 8 shows, when we get a double dose of tyler perry's bull on tnt, is a load of bull. But just like we are going to learn today, we have to work with what we have. BET has not made a decision on the game. http://www.bet.com/. WRITE AND CONTACT THEM, HELP THEM "FIND" THE SPIRIT TO RENEW THESE FOLK'S CONTRACTS. THEY GOT JOBS AND LIVES AND STUFF........
Anyway, one of the main characters malik wright is on a new path, got his new lady, clean sober, ready to conquer the world. But he founds out that everybody don't want you clean, from lust, from drugs, from drama. He has a last stripper dance as he is pruning if you will things from his life. Ahh, if we only had that chance to have that last chance........
If it only worked that way in real life. The fact that we gotta a President who can write his own bracket, yet not come up with his own birth paperwork nor a budget. The fact we gotta a president who is leaving columbia, peru and other allies short in trade deals(I got you, money mitch..........no deal, no nominees,........) but is running to brazil while you can't work and pay $5.00 at the gas pump but Mexico and other countries can drill out of the gulf.
The fact that we spend more time talking about giving in regard to Japan than address the gorilla in the room that the potential for nuclear chaos in this country demands that we start back drilling, demands that we really start to take a look at what kind of energy plan barack is really talking about........
The fact that so many tea party house members voted for a CR that contains funds for obamacare........
The fact that michigan is writing their own "union-busting bill"
The fact that Libya rebels. DIED........................
DIED WAITING FOR US TO COME HELP THEM WHILE THE PRESIDENT PROUDLY TALKS ABOUT JOBS AND EDUCATION WHICH REALLY MEANS STUDENT VISAS, AMNESTY FOR ILLEGAL WORKERS......
is why I say this with all honesty, all the conviction, all the courage I can muster today.
IT WILL BE A VERY COLD DAY IN HELL, SO COLD THAT LUCIFER IS CALLING HIS MOM FOR A CUP TO KEEP HIS ESSENCE WARM, BEFORE I WILL EVER SHUT MY VOICE DOWN.
DO YOU UNDERSTAND BARACK? DELMAR AND HIS FAMILY IS STARTING TO UNDERSTAND, ME AND MY FAMILY OUTSIDE OF MY POPS IS GOING TO HAVE TO KNOCK DOWN AND DRAG IT OUT, BUT WE WILL GET SOME UNDERSTANDING........
MY QUESTION TO YOU, GEO-POLITICAL FORCES ON THE RIGHT AND THE LEFT, IS DO YOU UNDERSTAND, I AIN'T GOING NOWHERE.......
I AIN'T MOVING TO NO OTHER HOUSE SO THAT YOU CALL CAN CONTINUE THIS FRAUD. I AM GOING TO BE HERE AND I HAVE NO CLUE WHEN I AM GOING TO BE ABLE TO WORK, I DON'T KNOW WHERE MY NEXT DOLLAR IS GOING TO COME FROM.
BUT I DO KNOW AS LONG AS GOD IS STILL HOLDING MY HAND WHEN I GET UP IN THE MORNING, THE SAME AS HE DOES WHEN I GO TO BED, I'M GONNA FIGHT FOR THIS COUNTRY AND ITS CITIZENS.....
Michelle Malkin's people still missing Barack............I know these tea party freshman, but I also know you, Barack..........
You play with folk lives.........
I AIN'T AFRAID NO MORE.............I AIN'T AFRAID OF THE BLACKMAIL THAT IS TO COME, I AIN'T AFRAID OF THE SECRETS THAT I WISH I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW. I AIN'T GOING TO HOLD MY HEAD DOWN FOR THINGS I COULDN'T CONTROL, I AIN'T GOING TO HOLD MY HEAD DOWN FOR THE THINGS I COULD..........
NOBODY, NOBODY, NOBODY IS GOING TO STAND UP TO BARACK, BUT GOV. PALIN, MICHELLE BACHMANN AND ME.
And I think we all can agree, I probably don't need to be on the ticket......... I could make some cool holidays though.
We not going to run on race, nor classism, or social judgment. We are going to run on MLK and what he stood for. to be judged on the content of his character and not the color of his skin.
We going to add a little bit to that phrase, in that we will not be be judged on the nature of biological differences.
I put my life on the line to save this country. I put my life and its events forever on this crazy thing called the internet, not for fame........Baby, I can get that by just getting out of the bed in the morning. I put my life on the line to save this country because the games, the identity theft, the setting up Tiffani because of her affliation to some folk on the right and the left for that matter could stop.
And despite the fact, that I didn't go to Harvard.......despite the fact, that I am divorced, despite the fact that I can't say in life I may not have a woman in my life, I mean serioulsy because we are going to get it out today as we end this chapter. Despite the fact that everyday, I can't say I am sober nor all the way sane....... :).
Despite the fact that I am sick, despite the fact that i can't get my hair done right now, despite the fact that I got one pair of shoes, despite the fact that all those around me are pulling this and that, despite it all.
DESPITE IT ALL.
DESPITE IT ALL.
WE ARE GOING TO RUN A CAMPAIGN BASED ON HAVING THE FAITH IN THIS COUNTRY AND CULTURE TO ENJOY THE FREEDOMS TO FELLOWSHIP WITH WHO AND HOW WE WANT.
AND WE ARE GOING TO WIN.
I KNOW I DON'T BELONG TO NOBODY, U CAN'T HURT ME WITH THAT NO MORE. I KNOW IN THE END, I HAVE TO BE THE LAST MAN STANDING BECAUSE IT AIN'T NOBODY BEHIND ME. I KNOW EVERY SINGLE SHADY THING I HAVE EVER DONE IS GOING TO COME OUT.
I KNOW I AM PLAYING A DANGEROUS GAME WITH MY LIFE FOR TRYING TO STAND UP TO SOME CHILD SEX SLAVE BROKERS AND SOME HUMAN TRAFFICKERS........
But I ain't never ran from nobody...............too slow, and now I am too old and blessed to even think about that.
WE ARE GOING TO WIN THIS COUNTRY BACK. WE ARE GOING TO WIN 2012. WE WILL THEN REPEAL OBAMACARE, WE WILL ENSURE FEDERALLY THAT NO ONE WILL EVER BE ABLE TO RUN ILLEGALLY AGAIN LIKE THAT. WE WILL STOP IMMIGRATION, ALL THIS ANCHOR BABY STUFF.
WE ARE GOING TO STOP THE OBAMA AGENDA. AND WHATEVER HAS TO BE DONE TO ME, BARACK.............COME ON WITH IT, BROTHER. I AM PUTTING MY HEAD IN THE LION'S MOUTH FOR YOU.
NOT B/C OF SPECIAL POWERS, NOT B/C OF GENETICS......
SIMPLY BECAUSE THE GOD I SERVED DECLARED THIS GOD'S(CHRISTIAN CULTURE, NOT NECESSARILY RELIGIOUS) COUNTRY AND TOLD ME AS HIS CHILD, AS HIS CHILD IT IS MY RESPONSIBLITY TO PROTECT IT.
THERE ARE SOME PLACES, GOV. PALIN CAN'T GO. MICHELLE BACHMANN CAN'T GO, JOE BIDEN CAN'T GO, MICHELLE OBAMA CAN'T GO.
BUT ME AND YOU CAN, CAN'T WE BARACK. TWO ADDICTS, TWO FOTB'S........
TWO FOLK WHO HAVE SHOWN THEY HAVE NO PROBLEM USING OR DOING ANYTHING WITHIN THEIR MEANS TO WIN NOT FOR THEMSELVES, BUT FOR THE PEOPLE GOD HAS PUT IN THEIR HEARTS.........
Tiffani El Dawn Mims versus Barack Hussien Obama.
That won't be what the ticket will say, but we all know that this is what it is about.
I am black and you will not shame me with race, "hoodness", "goodness" or whatever kind of crap, you, hill harper and oprah. come up with today.
It will be black on black political violence.........
At its finest, on a presidential stage........
Ain't that what MLK was fighting for? The right to be just like everyone else.
The right to get your butt whopped all up and down these states. And yes, I readily admit it's personal BECAUSE AMERICA MEANS SOMETHING TO ME MORE THAN A FREE RIDE BECAUSE EVERYONE ELSE'S COUNTRY IS CRAPPY. IT MEANS MORE THAN TELLING STUDENTS WHO PARENTS BROKE THE LAW THEY ARE MORE DESERVING THAN PARENTS WHO FOLLOW THE LAW.
IT IS PERSONAL...........
IT IS SO VERY PERSONAL BARACK, AND NO MAN, NO LOVE, NO CRAYOLA, NO SECRET, NO LETTER, NO BLACKMAIL IS GOING TO KEEP ME FROM THIS.
YOU WANTED A FIGHT WITH ME UNTIL YOU REALIZED THAT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU MY ENTIRE LIFE.......
UNTIL YOU BECAME PRESIDENT, MY PURPOSE DIDN'T EMERGE.
NOTHING PERSONAL, BUT WHAT YOU STAND FOR, ON LEVELS YOU NOR I CAN DISCUSS IN THIS FORUM, PUTS YOU AGAINST ME.
I PUT MY LIFE ON THE LINE.........
YOU PUT THE LIVES OF MY COUNTRYMEN AND WOMEN ON THE LINE.
ONLY ONE OF US GOING TO GET UP. ONLY ONE OF US WILL BE WITHOUT CHARGES.
2012 started in 1975..........somebody should have told you.
I am not going to say too much more, because it is too personal. Me and mama and my sister beefing because we all facing truths we can't run from no more. I have to follow this through until the end. But it's allright, I am okay, not going to flip out. I know I just throwaway Tiffani, I am just fighting for my right be in America and have a life. We going to be okay.
I'll be back tomorrow with a new book.
This was just still a little personal today. Barack is getting the butt whooping he has been asking for.
dave ramsey talks about the difference of career and jobs.........think about that when you see barack holding the hand of some medical assistant and construction worker talking about jobs versus holding the hands of a doctor or a small business owners talking about careers and opportunities.
Armstrong Williams breaks down some simple things we all should have learned in kindgergarten and applies it to the fiscal mess we call a US economy. Please read.
Jon Saunders breaks down Obama's stimulus salesperson and highlights techniques that make pimping(oh, I mean shovel-ready projects) profitable and viable even in today's times.....being sarcastic but you get my point.
Terry Jeffrey breaks down what Michelle Bachmann has been saying all along. DON'T PAY FOR OBAMACARE.
Walter E. Williams talks about demanding excellence from these so called experts.......and the hyprocrisy of some using these catch phrases like Obama tax extensions.......did Obama come up with the idea or just the pen to erase Bush's name off. it matters read why.
John Stossel.......I THINK THIS IS A MUST READ. HE TALKS ABOUT THE DEVASTATION OF THE WAR ON DRUGS ON BLACK AMERICA. MAY SOUND LIBERAL, BUT READ IT, HE BRINGS PERSPECTIVE. LOOK AT ME, IMAN RAUF CAN GET MILLIONS FROM THE GOVERNMENT AND HE HAS OPEN ASSOCIATION WITH HAMAS, i grow a marijuana plant and if it wasn't for Bush, I couldn't get financial aid and even though I pay taxes, I can't get Sec 8, food stamps, medicare, none of that.........read it with an open mind.
Michelle Malkin talks about John Kerry moving funds around like he was moving money for some drug lord.........Nasty words like slush funds, fiscal proligacy really make you want to sit down with a switch that Tasha mac had on the game last week, and just go down the aisle right and left, popping licks.......This don't make no sense. You wonder how any congressperson has somewhere to stay if they ran their own finances like this.
ALSO IF YOU ARE IN THE SEATTLE AREA, MICHELLE M.'S PEOPLE STILL MISSING, GO TO THE LINK ON THE RIGHT AND CHECK OUT THE INFO ABOUT THE SEARCH FOR HER PEOPLE. Ms. Malkin, you my sister........my prayers are with you and your family.
LAST BUT NOT LEAST,
THOMAS SOWELL BREAKS DOWN HOW IF THE GOP BROKE THE DEMOCRATIC AFFECT ON THE BLACK COMMUNITY, how you all would make inroads.......
I think it is a must read, because it is going to take folk like me to do it. Because between the africans we just got over here, the ignorant folk that's been over here, and the white crap starters (oh, I am sorry, the white liberals who feel the need to defend any black racial injustice they determine), IT'S A LOT OF JUST PLAIN OLE' FOLK THAT NEED SOMEONE LIKE ME WHO DON'T MIND BEING CALLED WHATEVER TO BREAK THESE CONCEPTS DOWN ON A LEVEL THEY CAN UNDERSTAND...............You wouldn't think it would work that way, but hey
when you got Steve Harvey and Chris Rock, turning their comedic genius into god-given political talents to come up with phrases like "Heck, yes, I voted for him because he's black so what" with the off-stage knowledge that there is not enough black legal voters to swing even an American idol vote.....
You have your work cut out for you...
that's what folk like me are for.
#2012, Barack. After what you pulled this week, and that merry band including my own people you call followers, be glad brother..............be thankful, i am trying to save this country and not personally coming after for you and your illegal nation stealing my life.
we back on track for tomorrow.