due to nature of the accusations in this post, i have been interupted, i could stay and finish but it will present issues related to my health and safety, i will continue to write until the last minute and if i don't finish tonight, will finish tomorrow.
sorry, i told you all the month of march and lent is never a good time for me. Some folk are bent on trying to prove I am a devil....
Why? with all this charming personality I don't know.
How are you? We have a very pressed day. We are going to talk about roles, responsibility and reality as some of us are having a little trouble.
Today, I went to the C.A.W. Legal Clinic hosted and founded by my church, Good Street Baptist Church. I have no need to publicize my church for my own selfish reasons. I grew up there. And I trust the Lord knows that most of the things I could be doing for money, don't belong in God's house....
I talk about my church because I believe in the mission of this church. I believe in the tenets that I learned there and subscribe to the best I can today. So let's get that out of the way. There are some lies and some truths with Good Street and I in regard to our relationship. They saw me at a very ugly time, if you will, in my life, but all of it, really none of the initial fault was on me, how I reacted to it, was all on me.
I wanted to learn about palimentary procedure, and I knew a review would be had as I went to the member's only section. Not that I don't know. I was president of my chapter, Theta Mu, happy belated chapter anniversary...University of Oklahoma....Z-phi.
And just being in politics, rule of order is ingrained in you, but I don't get to go to church on Sundays, because I am usually on here working. I wanted the church to see that I was okay. Me and my sister are having a "role" conflict if you will.
So what we are going to do today, as we are getting very, very personal in the sense, that when I write these words there is a direct reaction to them and those folk in my life have the ability to affect my safety and health.
We are going to get personal a bit, today, we are going to talk about an awesome, soul-stirring concept that I learned from today's clinic and we are going to end with Palin versus Obama.
Y'all ready let's go.
All my life it has been me and my sister. And when we were younger, I was the chosen one....And I still am, but you know how it is, you go through things, your younger siblings grow up, become responsible, and then make the awesome leap into not only thinking that you will never get yours together, also making the leap that they can get involved in identity theft with your name, B/C DON'T NOBODY KNOW TIFFANI LIKE CHRISTIE..............
Hmm.............there are some friends, and some ex's that would disagree with that. There is a God that is laughing right now at the absurdity of that statement. In my mind, my sister is my baby sister. I don't want her to ever go to jail, I want her to raise her children, her and husband realize and grow in their marriage every day, and for to go to work and be legal. It was never my intention for my sister to get "involved...." But I was going through a lot, and I no longer became the absolute voice in my sister's head.
To sum it up, I know that my sister and my mom deal with my ex-mother-in-law and other designated enemies on levels and interactions that they think I am not aware of. THIS IS YOUR PUBLIC DISCLOSURE....I KNOW.......I KNOW........
And because of this interaction between them, it gets Delmar involved. And the riding theme, that all of these parties have with my mom being the exception to an extent, is that they got TIFFANI ALL FIGURED OUT. THROW WOMEN IN HER FACE, SHE'LL DIE OVER DELMAR. MAKE HER MAD, HER PASSWORD KEY missing at church, SHE'LL CUSS YOU OUT. that type of thing.
It matters today because of roles.....Some of us can't stay in our lane, so I am going to remove some folk from driving.
So I am going to say some "hypotheticals" and I hope these aforementioned individuals, put in the blank.
I don't concern myself with others money, it ain't mine. You all do realize that as a medicinal marijuana grower I can get 11,500 a pound easy......without the drug dealers who need the come up, the family members who think I owe them when they ain't paid for nothing...., without the leeches.
Medicinal Marijuana is not growing weed. It is the distinction between patients and customers/fiends.
Medicinal Marijuana does not need a gang of dudes to sell, it is for medicine, those who are ill come to me. Do you all realize aforementioned ones, how many of my people got cancer, AIDS, and a variety of mental disorders in the anxiety category that I would love to test for the efficacy as an anxiolytic? I guess not, otherwise, I wouldn't be writing this.
Do you all realize that I am a cutie.....that I can go into any club, if that were my choice, and serve at $25 a gram without missing a beat of the show?
I guess not, otherwise, I wouldn't be writing this.
Do you all realize that long ago, I made up my mind that I would not be stupid enough to deal any type of illegal drug according to the controlled substance act, with people who have children, who have legal jobs, they know darn well, they can't afford to lose, people's parents/uncles/siblings, people who have been a federal informant and no, I am not talking about who you think I am..., people who are into child peddling, people who hang and tolerate pedophilia?
If I were and this is all hypothetical, to run an medicinal marijuana operation, then understand this: it won't be you. I don't need you for that. I don't deal with people, who hang with children and want to sell drugs. Children bring heat.
Next point, I really don't care about hood riches......I am a billion dollar, well you know. While most of you are excited because so and so got a couple of stacks, and this person got an benz, or etc, I DON'T GIVE A CRAP. WHY? FIRST OF ALL, IT AIN'T MINE. SECOND OF ALL, I GREW UP ON CAMP WISDOM, I WENT TO GOOD STREET.
Baby boy or girl, if you don't have the house paid for, the cars paid for, the life insurance by a AAA rated company, i might add, the vacation house paid for, the I'm set for life plan already in motion, if I can't see that despite a little cash in your hand, you can't pay your retainer for your lawyer, you can't afford a lawyer that can get you out with a signature bond and a nod from the judge, you get my drift....
None of that impresses me, but obviously my sister is impressed with my ex-mother-in-law and I can't do anything about that. I love my sister....but she is grown and she will learn if needed, that helping my-in-laws and my mom further fraud from way back in the day, will render only her in the crossroads called justice.
ACCEPT THIS HYPOTHETICAL REALITY.
I DON'T NEED YOU TO SELL NOTHING FOR ME.
I DON'T NEED YOU TO BUY NOTHING FROM ME.
I AM NOT WORRIED ABOUT PUTTING THE "HOOD" DOWN BECAUSE WHERE DO THE BOUNDARY LINES START, MY WORDS AFFECT GDP'S OF NATIONS, YOUR WORDS buy bs plans of getting me agitated.....
MEDICINAL MARIJUANA HAS ALWAYS BEEN A REASON TO ADVOCATE FOR AN ALTERNATIVE MEDICINE, NOT TO GET ON THE CHRONIC REMIX.
I HAVE A 130+ IQ, I CAN DO A VARIETY OF THINGS TO GET MONEY. IT IS NOT MY FAULT YOU CAN'T.
THE BULL THIS WEEK, FROM MY FLASH DRIVE BEING STOLEN, TO DELMAR KEEPING ME OUT LATE, TO DART NOT PICKING ME UP, TO ALL OF THIS MADE UP DRAMA IS DOING NOTHING, NOTHING BUT ENSURING ME THAT IF NEED BE, I WILL LEAVE EVERY LAST NAME AFOREMENTIONED ALONE WITHOUT STEPPING A FOOT OUT OF DALLAS.
STOP IT.......Don't be calling me with no bs excuses, friends of my sister that used to be cool with me, don't call with drama. Stay out of my face, not b/c of my reaction, simply because you are making it worse on yourself.
FACE IT! SOME OF YOU ALL ARE GOING TO JAIL, FOR A LONG TIME, AND YES, I WILL HAVE MONEY, I HAVE EARNED IT, CHECK OUT @tmims50 on twitter, everyday, I am winning, every day on this site I am winning, every day on facebook I am winning.
MARIJUANA DON'T HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH IT. I DON'T NEED YOU ALL FOR ANYTHING BECAUSE WHEN I DID, ALL YOU ALL DID WAS BEAT ME, LOCK ME UP, REFUSE TO BAIL ME OUT AND LEFT ME HANGING. AND GOD AND I GOT ME BACK UP AND FIXED THE PIECES, YOU ALL WERE RUNNING AROUND TRYING TO BE THE MAN OR WOMAN REMEMBER WITH SOME SIMPLE SIMPLETON'S......
IS THAT CLEAR? I DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT YOUR LIPS POUTED OUT, DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR CHILDREN, MAMA, NONE OF THAT. YOU WANT TO PLAY GANGSTA, THEN DON'T GET MAD AT THE BRUISES YOU GET ROMPING WITH ME...
I WILL BUY A CAR, I WILL PAY FOR SCHOOL, I WILL PAY FOR MY SURGERY, I WILL HAVE A LIFE BECAUSE IT IS THE HANDS OF THE GOD I SERVE.
NOW IF YOU REALLY WANT ME TO GO THERE, TOMORROW, LET IT BE DISCORD TONIGHT,
ARE WE CLEAR.............
ARE WE CLEAR......
THIS IS NOT ABOUT NO MEDICINAL MARIJUANA, NO CHANCE TO BE RICH, THIS IS ABOUT YOU ALL AFOREMENTIONED PEOPLE DID THINGS TO ME OUT OF HATE AND SPITE AND THE ARROGANCE THAT YOU THOUGHT YOU KNEW SOMETHING THAT THE GOD I SERVE DIDN'T....
I AM KIND, I AM A LOVER, NOT A FIGHTER, PHYSICALLY, SO I DON'T SAY NOTHING AND I KEEP QUIET, BUT BUSINESS IS AT HAND, AND I CAN'T FUNCTION WITH THIS DRAMA.
STOP CALLING EVERYTIME I STEP OUT OF THE HOUSE, STOP PANICKING EVERYTIME I POST MY WHEREABOUTS ONLINE.
YOU ALL AND THE DIRTY LAW ENFORCEMENT THAT IS KEEPING THAT MESS GOING, AIN'T GOTTA ANSWER TO ME. GOD IS SITTING AND WAITING FOR SOME "INTERVENTION" WITH ALL OF YOU ALL.
REVENGE AIN'T IN MY HEART NO MORE, MY REDEMPTION IS.
You all thought you played me, but in the end you played yourself, everytime you beat me, you lied on me, you called the police on me, you convinced others not to bail me out and don't anyone of you have the audacity to come to me with any illusions of that I owe you something, because I don't.
I owe me and I am taking care of me, go on.
I am sorry, America, I am.....
I love my family, my sister is so much like my ex-mother-in-law and about 4 aunties that I will never see again for the rest of my life it's scary. I love Delmar but all of this foolishness has to be addressed. Only black people, only negroes would spend 17 years trying to steal your life and then have the audacity to be mad because you want your life, to be mad because you don't need them for your hustle, to be mad because you got love in places they never thought to look because they was too busy stabbing your backside all up.
I'm free, the thrill is gone and All i can do, all I want to do is wish you well and that's where we start for today.
Sis. J. Ceaser spoke about church business today, but she alluded to something that I love about Good Street.....Roles.
In my church, the men of the church, the deacons sat in the front, the deaconnesses behind them. And that sight every Sunday, day in and day out, resonated with me.
That's a big reason for my agitation today because we got folk that have designated me for a particular role without consulting me or God first.
In a fundamental baptist church, there are roles that women cannot enter. I love that about my church, it speaks to me like the book of ruth speaks to be about submission.
However, you must know who and what you are submitting to and that has to be laid on a bed of trust.
Trust in the role and accept the realities of that roles.
I am not here to preach, I am from the thought a woman cannot lead a flock, spirtually....I am from the thought that that does not go over to politics, that is a job.
in the midst of discussions, Sis. Ceasar asked what are you going to do?
I ask you America, what are you going to do?
I know what Sarah Palin is doing, going to key allies like India which is muslim amongst other religions, but also reaching out to our throwback allies like Isreal.
She is starting to make the distinction between herself and Obama. AS SHE SHOULD.
AS SHE SHOULD.
BECAUSE IN THE END IT ALL BOILS DOWN TO TRUST.
I DON'T TRUST OBAMA, OR ANY MAN THAT IS COMFORTABLE WITH ASKING ANOTHER FOR THE RIGHT TO DEFEND HIMSELF OR THOSE HE IS ELECTED TO REPRESENT.
I DON'T TRUST OBAMA THEREFORE I CANNOT HONESTLY REVIEW THE MERITS OF HIS ACTIONS ENOUGH TO PUT MY LIFE ON THE LINE FOR HIS ORDERS.
I DIDN'T LIKE #41, I DIDN'T LIKE REAGAN ACTUALLY, I DIDN'T......
BUT I DON'T TRUST CLINTON NOR OBAMA AND THAT'S A BIG DIFFERENCE.
We are going to use this chapter to explore the roles obama and palin want to play in regard to presidential politics and see how trust enters this.
I have to stop now. Not because I am through I have to stop because I need to gauge the level of safety these words will have on me.
If i am not back tonight, will be back tomorrow and I apologize, some of the aforementioned names just won't stop.
Let me take a break, because this is third call I have gotten from trusted friends about my safety.
I'll be back and we'll get a little deeper. I told you all, I put my life on the line, just so you all can see how deep this rabbit hole of identity theft, federal corruption and geo-political forces goes...
I didn't say it wouldn't be dangerous.