How are you? I am okay, this morning. Rather, I'm blessed. Not b/c all of my life problems are solved....Nah........I am thankful that I have most of the faculties still intact to be able to address. The things we take for granted.
I'm on a new level, these days. I am focused, I am feeling it. Although I know if I don't end this book pretty soon, Kayne's lawyers are going to be coming for some checks. There is a new energy in the air, there is change, just now what some of you all envisioned.
Right now, in less than 40 hours, our government will shut down. Even if a deal is reached, the bill cannot be written and voted on in 40 hours. We not doing no rush job.
John Boehner says there is no daylight between himself and the tea party. Folk like me say we 100, but in the end its the same thing. I am not going to write about whose right or wrong today. Nah, we just going to do some real truth. See, no matter what Obama says, some of you all chose him b/c he was the super smart lawyer community not into materialism president.........and you got what you wanted, you got what you thought you wanted.
Relationships are built on beds of trust, and that trust is fragile. Folk gotta feed their kids, folk gotta have somewhere to stay. So many on the hill become so engrossed in the beltway, that we forget the political hunger pains that brought us there.
It took me a long time to understand jealousy on a personal level, not like I'm jealous of someone trying to be with a spouse or something. Just jealousy of another, hate.......I was one of those who never hated, I simply admired and figured a way to get it myself. The decisions that are made today, REGARDLESS, are due to one political entity, the tea party.
For good or for bad, this is the only political party that had the fortitude to stand up and say no. No more. And for that, they should be commended. I am going to go out on a limb today and just talk, real talk about the fiscal ramifications that are going to happen. regardless of whether a deal was made.
Two facts must be accepted before reading this. 1) Under a supermajority, meaning in which one party runs all the branches of govt, except SCOTUS (which is needed b/c it's in our constitution, Barack........) during the Obama Administration. NOT ONE, NOT ONE, NOT ONE BUDGET WAS PASSED OR SIGNED INTO LAW. I know the way the democrats are falling out now, I think I actually saw tears in harry reid's eye this morning (didn't think Barack would stab u in the back like that, huh? tried to tell you........) it doesn't seem that way. But the game of CR's and stopgaps has been going on ever since Hope and Change Replaced Faith and Freedom.
2)The Role of the President of the United States in fiscal crisis such as these is to do what's best for the people with the means he or she has in front of them. MEANING, BARACK YOU HAVE THIS COUNTRY'S LIVELIHOOD IN YOUR HANDS, AND NOT SIGNING A BUDGET B/C OF THIS RIDER OR THAT RIDER IS NOT GOING TO BE TOLERATED........AT ALL. B/C AT THE END OF THE DAY, WE HAVE LIBYAN SOLDIERS COMING IN THROUGH OUR POROUS SOUTHERN BORDER without a peep from the media. Be A President for once, and sign what the people send up there. #stayinurlane....
God and I had a meeting this morning. We had coffee and juice, danishes which I just love.......this type of stuff. We sat down and had a good breakfast, laughed, joked. God got his staff in there, I have mine.........even in the metaphysical........staff is needed.
We linger for a couple of more moments and then God excuses both staffs......This is my office today. He offers me a drink. I ask "this early in the morning............."
He replies "If you were in Los Angeles, would you even be asking that question?"
The point is taken, we have a drink. A wonderful, rich and robust merlot........
"Tiffani, I see you are moving in the right direction. I see that you are trying to stay centered stay on point. Have you thought about when you are going to get married? You need to be accounted for, and you know what I am talking about........."
I sit my glass on the table and look out at my new office. Things are picking up. The small business spirit is infectious within me. I was so stoked to think about how much to pay staff, office space, hiring IT folk, building secure networks. I sigh......... I take another drink, wine like this is not made to be gulped, meant to be enjoyed, lingered on.
"That's what you came to me about........God............really.........I don't do anything, I don't go out, I don't do nothing. I work and I work. every blue moon I take a break for a moment and let off some steam, but you know I don't do anything. Why would you come at me like that, we trying to see what's going on with this shutdown and all this and that?"
God sits his glass on the table. He sits down in his seat and looks me directly in the eye.........
"That's why I gave you a drink, sometimes you can be so shortsighted.....you know that don't you?"
"I think the question at hand is whether you know that or not, God. If you knew it was going to offend me, then why did you come at me that way?"
"Hmmmmmmmmmm probably b/c I can..... And to a larger point, Tiffani you need to give Delmar that sense of commitment. I know, I know...........I know Tiffani, for me to come on behalf of him in some ways is just down right disrespectful, especially since you have been managing things on the home front, relatively well for you.......but b/c of the shutdown b/c it's unavoidable at this point.....Things are going to change. Men are different. They need to see physical signs that you 'belong' to them......"
God knows me well enough to know that words like commitment and belong make me grimace, but I don't say anything. I just listen.
"The money is going to be gone in a minute, Tiffani, you know good and well most of these folk, most citizens legal and these illegal immigrants have no clue what all the govt pays for and the fiscal blow back that is going to be felt by the states and directly impacted by the lack of social services......You know that. You know that Obama is going to let the government shutdown so he can have someone to blame since you and Herman Cain took his race card away.
Money becomes much more powerful in like 30 hours and counting, I think. Money, power, and a single Tiffani.......nah.........People do things for money, Tiffani, people do things for the things money can buy and no matter how much you run 'the spin' I read your stuff from time to time, this is my world........and in this world, you made a vow to me regarding him for better or for worse. Now I am not going to ask you to put yourself in no danger, but I am going to ask you to be accounted for. You can't be running loose on this level. Not b/c of promiscuity.......but b/c you asked, you prayed for Delmar to finally "get it." and he is, you can't renig now......."
"Nice try God, but what's the real reason.............."
"Okay, okay, Tiffani you got me, b/c when it...............................all falls down, only folk like you are going to be standing. That's the Kayne I want you to play today........"
"You went through all of that, just to ask for a song..........not cool dude."
"No, Tiffani, I went through all that to get you to see that it's time and you have to commit b/c it is all falling down and people gotta be able to depend on you, I knew you chose the song last night. ;) Jesus made this wine so you know I'm taking it........get back to work........."
And just like that God is gone...............Marriage.........marriage at this age, makes you think of pre-nups not about of mine or yours, I own property I have to make sure it goes to its rightful heir if something happens, and with this site and all of this stuff. And plus because I am honest with myself, I want to make sure Delmar is taken care of, regardless that's important to me. But my point in sharing this story is that some of us, including myself.....including myself......need to ensure that we are on point personally for the roads ahead. For the people are believing in us, and we must show them that we live by the principles we sometimes ask others to do for.
I shared this story to show young ladies that although you may not be doing anything outside of your relationship, men are people too(I didn't have any brothers or anything, I had to find out when I was grown, who knew?). People are people and people want a commitment sometimes........And the way that they want that commitment we have to respect. I don't like belonging to anyone. It makes me feel like a slave and trust I can relate more to slavery than some of you all realize, but I also understand that difficulty being with someone like me brings. I mistrust authority, I rebel.......I don't like formal limitations. I don't like being cornered and not having no options But when it all falls down, in the end b/c I do love this man, I do advocate commitment to these principles, I have to show commitment at home b/c as God said, when it all falls down, you America are going to call on people like me.
Who have the propensity to "find" money and fill in the blanks governmental social justice never should have. And how can one have commitment without trust and how can that trust build without a definite act of commitment that all can respectively recognize.
Must reads from foxbusiness news today.
In a sheer twist of irony and just a complete example of how much hope and change is a crock. Stephanie Dhue shows us that hope and change is the gift that keeps on giving. The government workers can complain about furloughs but they get unemployment checks that we paying for.........We shutting the govt down b/c we out of money but still gotta pay these benefits. It's crazy, a must read for those who have trouble understanding hope and change idiocrocy like myself. When we commit to these bills, like I got the notice to commit, can we not have a clearer understanding of these bills.........
Reuters reports through fox business news that the employment data will come to a hold........No matter what he says publicly, if for no other reason, that's enough benefits for Obama to shut the government down and live with the consequences.
Brian Sullivan has the last must read of the day.........The effect of FHA closing as it is involved in over 20% of home loans in this country.
We have to stop this madness, we have to stop big government b/c.....
Come on Kayne.......
If God said give you the mike, I guess I got to.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OR878XTxHko video link with s. johnson, like that version better no disrespect l. hill.
Oh when it all, it all falls down
I'm telling you ohh, it all falls down
Yes, Brother West when it all falls down in like 30 hours, it won't be pretty for some, won't be enough for others.......
[Verse - Kanye West]
Man I promise, she's so self conscious
She has no idea what she's doing in college
That major that she majored in don't make no money
But she won't drop out, her parents will look at her funny
Yes, I can feel you on that, so many children were shut out of entry level jobs due to the proliferation of illegal immigrants and the geo-political factors that support them and made the requirements for working simple jobs require expensive hire education......
Do you really need a college degree to work at Enterprise? Your parents will look at you funny b/c before hope and change just gave everything to everybody just being anybody. College meant a source of dedication and setting a goal, this internet business wasn't on here like that.....
Now, tell me that ain't insecurrre
The concept of school seems so securrre
It does seem secure until you get there and see the foreigners with student visas, housing vouchers, and food stamps and all you got is promissory notes......
Sophmore three yearrrs aint picked a careerrr
She like f*** it, I'll just stay down herre and do hair
Sometimes, it's like that college is supposed to be a time of self-discovery and yeah, you gotta through some majors to do that sometimes......
Cause that's enough money to buy her a few pairs of new Airs
Cause her baby daddy don't really care
starting to fall down, a baby with no daddy in the picture, leaving the child to that ghetto university huh, Kayne.......
She's so precious with the peer pressure
She is precious........She is Kayne.........and these females that Obama administration is bent on destroying needs both of our help, Kayne.
Couldn't afford a car so she named her daughter Alexus (a Lexus)
She had hair so long that it looked like weave
Then she cut it all off now she look like Eve
And she be dealing with some issues that you can't believe
Single black female addicted to retail and well
It's hard out here, and it's going to even harder Kayne. Although black people by no means receive the majority of benefits, the distrubution of those receiving benefits in our culture is disproportionate to say the least.........
The issues are going to get harder. For all of us, for all single females addicted to retail.
[Chorus - repeat 2x (w/ Kanye ad-libs)]
[Verse - Kanye West]
Man I promise, I'm so self conscious
That's why you always see me with at least one of my watches
We guard ourselves with material things we think can prevent the boogeyman from coming at night........I can dig it.
Rollies and Pasha's done drove me crazy
I can't even pronounce nothing, pass that versace!
Then I spent 400 bucks on this
Just to be like n**** you ain't up on this!
the feeling of showing someone up is addicting, I know but we are older now and should be able to tell the children the futility of being something for other folk. If it is what you want, that should be all that matters.
And I can't even go to the grocery store
Without some ones thats clean and a shirt with a team
Oh but those days are changing, Kayne, it's all falling down..........you think hunger pains are going to stop b/c of the cleanliness of your money or the state of your clothes.....Some of you all better get a clue. Kayne you know I am just talking right? Nothing personal.......You just have the courage to be honest, I gotta use it.
It seems we living the american dream
But the people highest up got the lowest self esteem
The prettiest people do the ugliest things
For the road to riches and diamond rings
It is in this stanza that we find our reason for the benediction chosen today. There is so much hate about she got this man, or this man drive this car........If they only knew, a lot of those with the most materials are dying inside b/c you treat them with contempt because they had the audacity to want something and you all depending on Robin Hood known as wonder Mike for his social justice to kick it from their possessions........
Would you be depressed to? Ain't no free money out there, y'all know that right. Now I saw the hope and change commercials.......but you all know that it's a hustle. Ain't nobody going to give you nothing for free. not on these streets.
We shine because they hate us, floss cause they degrade us
We trying to buy back our 40 acres
And for that paper, look how low we a'stoop
Even if you in a Benz, you still a n**** in a coop/coupe
And to his credit, he's right. on this point. We as black Americans buy out of defiance not dedication to fiscal goals and America single-handedly has enjoyed the benefits out of that mentality. When you got shorties to feed, Kayne, ain't no valley low enough, ain't no mountain high enough. That ain't a black thing, that's a we gotta survive thing. And some of you all laugh and judge,.............
being able to look down on somebody don't put food in kids mouth, nor clothing on their back.
[Chorus - repeat 2x (w/ Kanye ad-libs)]
[Verse - Kanye West]
I say f*** the police, thats how I treat em
We buy our way out of jail, but we can't buy freedom
freedom is a little bit more expensive than bail...........remember that on memorial day.
We'll buy a lot of clothes when we don't really need em
Things we buy to cover up what's inside
sometimes, i do, but sometimes I really do want to look good and my image demands that I have to be fresh........am I spiritually challenged because of that? We all got issues but sometimes, I really do buy just b/c I want....
Cause they make us hate ourself and love they wealth
That's why shortys hollering "where the ballas' at?"
they can't make you do nothing. you hate yourself b/c you hate yourself. you love their wealth b/c you too busy counting theirs to get your own. Shortys ask where the ballers at b/c ain't no need to ask nobody to buy you a drink with that hot $250 a week from their federal unemployment check........
Drug dealer buy Jordans, crackhead buy crack
And a white man get paid off of all of that
no actually, the republic of china gets paid off of jordans and I am pretty sure somebody in columbia is getting a cut of those keys. to say it's "white" folk is childish, yet and still remains the democratic party slogan.....
But I ain't even gon act holier than thou
Cause f*** it, I went to Jacob with 25 thou
Before I had a house and I'd do it again
Cause I wanna be on 106 and Park pushing a Benz
I wanna act ballerific like it's all terrific
I got a couple past due bills, I won't get specific
I got a problem with spending before I get it
We all self conscious I'm just the first to admit it
SOLE REASON I CHOSE THIS SONG, WE CAN'T CUT THE BENEFITS OFF, REGARDLESS AND THINK PEOPLE ARE NOT GOING TO DO WHAT THEY FEEL THEY NEED TO TO GET WHAT THEY NEED.
IT IS GOING TO ALL FALL DOWN, AND IT WILL BE UGLY. DRUG HABITS THAT WERE SECRET ARE GOING TO EMERGE, BAD SPENDING HABITS AND PRACTICES ARE GOING TO SHOW WHO BALLS WHEN IT ALL FALLS........
[Chorus - to fade (w/ Kanye ad-libs)]
PEOPLE THIS IS FOR YOU, TODAY, NOT BOEHNER, NOT BARACK.......THE MONEY IS GONE, THE DEBT CEILING WON'T BE RAISED AND THOSE DECISIONS WILL PROBABLY CAUSE A WORLD WAR......
THEY CAN SAY WHAT THEY WANT, I AM TELLING YOU THE TRUTH. DONALD TRUMP IS ALL AROUND HAWAII NOW LOOKING FOR OBAMA'S BIRTH CERTIFICATE, WHEN HE GOES TO AFRICA OR INDONESIA AND OBTAINS IT IN ADDITION TO A GOP LIBERATARIAN FILLING IMPEACHMENT PAPERS ALREADY HAS HIGHLIGHTED IN POLITICO.
AND WHETHER YOU THINK THEY HOES, THEY HOOD RATS OR GOLD-DIGGERS, SINGLE FEMALES, EMPOWERED FEMALES, THOSE WHO THINK FOR THEMSELVES ARE A TARGET UNDER THIS CULTURE AND RELIGIOUS COUP OF OBAMA'S AND IT IS GOING TO STOP.
YOUNG GIRLS HAVE A RIGHT IN THIS COUNTRY TO DREAM JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, even if they "belong" to a man.........so hard to write ;) I AM NOT GOING TO LET YOU ALL BREAK THE SPIRIT OF THOSE WHO WANT SOMETHING IN THIS LIFE BESIDES A HANDOUT AND A I TOLD YOU SO FROM BARACK OBAMA.
MY POINT MY RETAIL ADDICTED, GOVERNMENT ADDICT FOLK IS THAT IT'S GONE.
IT IS ALL FALLING DOWN AND WHO ARE YOU GOING TO CALL?
SOME OF YOU ALL ARE GOING TO FIND OUT WHAT A HUSBAND OR A WIFE MEANS BY LACK OF HAVING ONE. SOME OF YOU ALL ARE GOING TO FIND OUT WHY SOME OF US CALL OUR FRIENDS OUR FAMILY. SOME OF YOU ALL ARE GOING TO LEARN ABOUT SOME COUPONS, SOME COOKING AT HOME, SOME KICKING IT AT HOME.
B/C THOSE WHO STAND WHEN ALL FALL AIN'T OBLIGATED TO HELP YOU GET UP AND THAT'S THE TRUTH......
STOP HATING ON THOSE WHO ARE ON THE VERGE OF GETTING IT, B/C IN THE END WHEN IT ALL FALLS DOWN B/C WHETHER THEY HAVE A DEAL OR NOT, THE GOV'T IS SHUT DOWN, OBAMA NEEDS THE POLITICAL LEVERAGE........
WHO ARE YOU GOING TO CALL?
AND MORE IMPORTANTLY WHO IS GOING TO PICK UP?
The beautiful ones by Prince none other serves as our benediction today. The ones who love to hate b/c we think they got all the things we think we should have. Our cheerleaders, our star football players, those who always have the new car for the family reunion........Well, they falling b/c the bigger they are, the harder they fall and Obama has made the choice for all of us to fall down. but I put a link of a cover which I do adore......no disrespect prince.......I love the melodic disharmony if you will between sisqo and mariah.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lLj3ri_R9A link for that cover.
Baby, baby, baby
What's it gonna be
Baby, baby, baby
Is it him or is it me?
Don't make me waste my time
Don't make me lose my mind baby
Baby, baby, baby
Can't u stay with me tonight
Oh baby, baby, baby
Don't my kisses please u right
U were so hard 2 find
The beautiful ones, they hurt u everytime
Paint a perfect picture
Bring 2 life a vision in one's mind
The beautiful ones
Always smash the picture
If I told u baby
That I was in love with u
Oh baby, baby, baby
If we got married
Would that be cool?
U make me so confused
The beautiful ones
U always seem 2 lose
What's it gonna be baby?
Do u want him?
Or do u want me?
Cause I want u
Said I want u
Tell me, babe
Do u want me?
I gotta know, I gotta know
Do u want me?
Baby, baby, baby
Listen 2 me
I may not know where I'm going (babe)
I said I may not know what I need
One thing, one thing's 4 certain baby
I know what I want, yeah
and if it please u baby
please u, baby
I'm begging down on my knees
I want u
Yes I do
Baby, baby, baby, baby
I want you
Yes I do
I may not know where I am headed, but I do know who I want and need in my life. Do you? Let the beautiful ones in your life be beautiful b/c it is only through God's curse or irony or whatever he wants to call it these days.........they are beautiful.
The beautiful ones have to carry the ugliest truths........
The government is shut down. And no matter what anyone says, the money from the three stimulus plans, the bailouts, and saving gm could have provided a lot more of hope and change we can really use right now than anything that could come out of Barack's mouth.
I made it up my mind, I have chosen my team. Time for me to put in work, b/c it won't be long before you all are calling on the patriots of this country to show you how to survive in it.