Monday, April 4, 2011

The Book of Truth (K&M) Chapter 4

Hello America,


How are you?  The sign of Aries is upon us in full swing, ......this is always a time of year, in Aprils versus march for some reason that represents the new year to me.  It represents not on a fiscal level, but on a personal and social level a time to step up.  To achieve new heights, I'm a cappy, climbing is fundamental....this is kind of long today, sorry......


I am at a point where I have to start really investing my time and energy into this transition.  I have to step my twitter game, I need to really start linking up with all of these webfolk that are feeling this site, keep sending me messages and stuff to my twitter account @tmims50 along with some real political antedotes from time to time......I'm getting to it.


Physically, I feel better, and now it is time.  I have to keep my hair cut, gotta start putting in some more exercise, I am getting down and slimmer, but for my health, I have a long ways to go and as we shall see today, sometimes, all the times in every path, there must be a first step in order for it to be a second........


Let's see, I actually wrote some notes, proud of myself, I have my gold star on and everything ;), so we are going to have a story that will relate to the budget and the possible shutdown along with Bill Clinton's delusion that somehow Obama's reelection campaign is about him......


We are going to have a real talk with God, b/c I don't like to leave God hanging in the sense of when we have public spats, I don't show how we resolve those spats and that is going to lead to some personal, not revengeful notes as I told you all this site is going through transitions, the no way in heck can I let Obama get reelected for this country to do totally apoot campaign has started, don't need a GOP candidate for that.


And because this is the book of Kayne and truths with the letter m, we are going to explore some more of the Kayneisms( yes, I did just make up that word, didn't ask Webster for permission or nothing, it's monday, I am feeling it........) and memories, music, money to wrap up some other pressing issues and that's a day.   We have a couple of video links today, we are starting the transition now to get into youtube and streaming videos, right now I am doing all this myself and I am pressed for time always........so forgive me, but a staff will be here soon.


And the benediction today....I'll think you'll appreciate, it has to do with candor and honesty.


Let's go......


I kept this story because I wanted to address the budget.  Remember the other day, when I was talking about pruning up my parent's yard.  It ended up being a lot.  Well, yesterday, I looked through the pile.  I know how it is working picking up trash, it is hard work like everything else.  Honest work and needed work.  We depend on so many we look down upon each and every day, it's a miracle sometimes as a society we have made it.........

So I look through the pile and here is all the leaves that I thought my dad raked up and bagged up, but there are not bagged and I know that the sanitation department isn't going to pick that up.  It was bulk trash day today, you know where you can throw anything out.  I wanted to bless my parent's house in my own way, with the earnest and honest spirit of renewal and new directions on old paths.

I look, I can't let all this stuff I cut down and raked and all this sit here and not be picked up, ask the sanitation department, it wasn't the most, but it wasn't the least either.  I have so many more things to do, I am being pulled in a million different directions as I am starting to trust and delegate, I have to b/c only I can write.  But it has to be done, the leaves have to be bagged.  And being my dad, I have to take off all of the branches, to say this was some hedges is a lie, these were some mini trees, anyway, I have to take all of that off in which he hid the leaves, bag the leaves, and restack the pile to ensure the sanitation department would pick it up.......

I got some gloves, I am starting to go out, I have things I have to do, calloused hands are cool when necessary, b/c I needed to do this, but not something I am........You can hear a lot of things about me, calloused hands, dry bittle skin ain't one of them.  I get a rack, and some bags, and get to work.  I purposely leave my phone in the house which means I can't be on twitter, I can't network and do what I do.  I get a glass of water with ice in it and get to work.  I move, I rack, I bag.

I don't take any breaks.  My nephew comes out there, but he is playing so I send him on.  And I continued on straight until I finshed.  Now, b/c  I put a post on here, and b/c my phone is read by my family and the information is relayed to Delmar (yes, I know.......and still said every word.....)  people come down the street, they look.  There is not joy about this yard needed to be cleaned up, there is hate because I took the time to do it the right way, where there could be no yeah, she did it but look........

I saw the hmm........in my sister's eyes..........It's not a matter of whether the old Tiffani is back, it is not a matter if a new Tiffani has emerged, baby it's just time. truths that I master equally, that's all....

I finished and then got to work on writing for yesterday and that's when my it problems started.

That's the end of that story.  What's the point you ask?  Sometimes, in life, you run into a situation, which you can't afford to deal with the sitatuion, you ain't got the money to deal with the situation, you ain't got the energy for the situation, but the enormity of the situation demands every neuron, every dendrite sending impulses down those myelin sheaths, at 10G speed.......


THAT'S LIFE, THAT'S WHAT MAKES LIFE LIFE.  that's what makes God God because you can't make this kind of stuff up.


THE BUDGET IS THAT SITUATION.  LOOK, PAUL RYAN THANK YOU, 4 TRILLION IS A START, IT IS ALMOST 1/3 REDUCTION OF THE DEFICIT THAT WE NOW OWE.  IF WE CAN DO THIS AS I THINK, NOT KNOW THAT BUDGETS ARE 10 YEARS, YES......THEN WE CAN SEE A REAL REDUCTION IF NOT FISCALLY SOLVENT AMERICA IN MY LIFETIME OR CERTAINLY IN MY CHILDREN'S LIFETIME(when I say children I mean my legal american babies.......all of them....until the rules change, fair is fair, I love the children, so I gotta love the children, i don't know if i will get some of my own....).


WE HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE BUDGET AND THAT MEANS ALLOWING THE BUDGET CHAIRMEN, THE MAJORITY LEADER IN THE HOUSE, AND THE SPEAKER OF THE HOUSE TO AN EXTENT THE LATITUDE THEY NEED TO GET IT DONE.


JOHN BOEHNER, WHEN YOU MEET WITH THE WH AS YOU SHOULD MICHEAL O'BRIEN, THEHILL.COM , JAKE SHERMAN POLITICO.COM, REMEMBER WHOSE MESSAGE YOU ARE THERE TO SEND.


NOT THE GOP'S MESSAGE, BUT THE MESSAGE OF THE MAJORITY WE ALL KNOW AND ACKNOWLEDGE PUT THE GRAVEL IN YOUR HANDS.........


THE SPENDING IS GOING TO STOP. IT IS GOING TO STOP NOW AND THE BS LITTLE CHANGE THAT THE WH KEEPS THROWING TO US WILL NOT BE TOLERATED ANYMORE.  WE ARE NOT DUMB, WE ARE NOT STUPID AND WE ARE THE ONLY COUNTRY IN WHICH WE ARE ARMED AND OBLIGATED TO GET THIS STRAIGHT IF YOU CAN'T.........


NO THREATS.......JUST TRUTHS.  JUST LIKE THOSE LEAVES, YOU GOTTA DIG AND UNCOVER.
PETE KASPEROWICZ REPORTS IN THEHILL.  LIKE REP. KING IS TRYING TO CUT ALL THIS MULTI-LINGUAL STUFF.


PEOPLE WE DON'T HAVE THE MONEY, EITHER YOU WANT YOUR HOUSING VOUCHER, OR A BROCHURE IN YOUR LANGUAGE TO TELL YOU ABOUT THE HOUSING VOUCHER YOU CAN NO LONGER GET.


IT'S HARD TIMES, IT'S HARD CHOICES. BABY, IT'S 2012 EVERYDAY.


JORDIAN FABIAN TALKS ABOUT HOW DEMINT SAYS PUT IT ON THE LINE WHEN IT COMES TO BORROWING THIS  MONEY, AND AMEN BROTHER IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY IN THE HILL.COM


THE FEDERAL RESERVE BANK OWES OUR DEBT, 10 MEN, I BELIEVE, ALL MEN HAVE OUR LIVES, OUR RIGHTS TO FREEDOM B/C FISCAL SLAVERY IS NO JOKE IN OUR HANDS.  IT IS TIME TO TELL THEM THE SAME THING I HAD TO TELL THE GARDEN FOLK WHO STOPPED BY AS I WAS WORKING.


MY PARENT'S CAN'T AFFORD TO PAY YOU, I GOTTA DO THIS MYSELF WITH WHAT I GOT, I HAND SAW, AND A HEART....


THIS COUNTRY CAN'T AFFORD TO BORROW FROM YOU NO MORE, WE GOTTA LIVE WITHIN OUR MEANS.....ON THE SPIRIT OF BROTHERHOOD AND CHARITY THAT RUNS THROUGH EVERY REAL AMERICAN WITHOUT GOVERNMENTAL INFLUENCE OR MANDATES...


TEA PARTY WHAT YOU GOING TO DO, AS MICHEAL O'BRIEN IN THE HILL , POINTS OUT AS CLINTON POINTS OUT(bill clinton...........frat.........high five, b/c you know how to play to independents.......that welfare reform theme is still going strong, it ain't going to work.........but blue phi, frat, blue phi) A SHUTDOWN IS NOT THE END, BUT YOU WILL FEEL IT.


YOU WILL SEE IF YOU REALLY ARE WORKING TO GET THIS COUNTRY STRAIGHT OR IF YOU WORKING TO KEEP YOUR JOB.  VOTE WHAT YOUR SPIRIT SAYS.....


BUT KNOW AND UNDERSTAND THAT THERE ARE CONSEQUENCES TO EVERY ACTION.  NO ONE, NO ONE ON MY TEAM, NO ONE ON THIS SITE AND MY NETWORK THAT REACHES OUTSIDE OF THIS, WILL VAULT FOR YOU FOR TELLING THE FED NO MORE MONEY, IT WILL NOT BE TOLERATED AT ALL, THE DEMONIZATION FOR HAVING THE COURAGE TO FACE TOUGH CHOICES.


NOT FROM THE LEFT, NOR THE RIGHT.............


AND I MEAN THAT..........I DO.........


FROM PAUL RYAN ON DOWN, WE WILL NOT HAVE A CAMPAIGN BASED ON THE RICH EVIL WHITE FOLK THAT AIN'T FOR ME AND THEIR UNCLE TOM FRIENDS TOOK YOUR CHECKS AWAY......


VOTE WITH THE RIGHT DECISION TO MAKE FOR YOUR STATE, YOUR DISTRICT, BUT YOU AIN'T GOTTA WORRY ABOUT VOTING OUT OF FEAR.........


Molly K. Hooper says otherwise, but in some districts, not shutting the government down is where the backlash will come from.  if Obama can start wars, have federal employees not paying taxes, all this waste, not enforcing our immigration laws, suing states when FOLK ARE DYING ON THE AZ,NM,CALI, AND TX borders right now..........


NAH........THE GOVERNMENT DON'T NEED NO MORE MONEY.  YOU DON'T PUT MONEY IN AN ADDICT'S HANDS AT THREE IN THE MORNING WHEN YOU ON THE VERGE OF BEING EVICTED, AND HE IS ITCHING AND STRATCHING TALKING ABOUT HE GOT AN INVESTOR IN SOME PARTY FAVORS AROUND THE CORNER......


YOU DON'T.


TRUST.........YOU ALL VOTE AND DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO, AND NO BACKLASH WILL BE TOLERATED........ESPECIALLY FROM THE RIGHT, WE MAKING EXAMPLES NOT GIVING WARNINGS....


Second part........

I had a talk with God.  I was bsing around.........Just doing random things.  He comes into the room, I can feel the warmth from his smile.......This time I do look at him, I get up and we hug.........

"Man.............Tiffani..............dude................girl..................ahh.............."  God says......Sometimes, it's like that with us. It don't take much conversation.

I respond......."I know...........man...........you already know............woohhhhhhh..........boyyy.........."

We go on for like ten minutes with this.  Blanks don't always need to be filled in.

"It's like this God, I just want these children to have the chance to take drake and trey songz( u thought I forgot about u, one of ur biggest fans ur first two albums..)  song succesful to heart.  "

http://www.elyricsworld.com/successful_lyrics_trey_songz_ft_drake.html

" In this country God, u going to go through some things.......and you gotta be able to do something for you, these folk, they come over they think they the only ones know hard times, ..........what's more cruel being hungry in hell, where you know it ain't nothing, or being hungry in heaven, where everybody eating.......Ain't nothing wrong with wanting to be succesful.  God.  I don't, I can't afford a generation, of those up under espeically these children, giving up on life, God, I can't.  I'll be old then, can't defend myself.  I have two grey hairs, and then I think I saw another one, yesterday.........time ain't waiting on me.  I gotta make sure these parents have something so the babies can learn to have something for themselves.

Barack got his own kids, he don't need a nation of them.........That's not pimping, that pre-school.  Let grown individuals make grown choices........it's much more rewarding in the end."

"Man, Tiffani, I was stressed man, i don't like beefing with you, you didn't represent for your church yesterday, you didn't write, but you did get that done. You said you was going to do something and you stuck with it.  You breezed by all that drama, those around you trying to press......You growing, you growing.  They hating, I saw that this morning, I saw last night, they hating because you have moved on with your life.  You in your lane.......I just wanted to stop by and give you something.  I know you hurting, I know you haven't had your surgery yet, I know you gotta a thousand things to do and every moment, they coming and calling......

I got something for you though....to get you through this.  You going to like it, like me go to my car........"

Yes, God drives.......if I told you, you might pull him over, he could be dirty or something ;).

He comes back with two gifts........

"Assistance" and "Motivation"  (private joke).........

We laugh for about ten minutes straight, I take my gifts, we hug again and God is gone, I hear his laughs as he blows by me in his ride.

My point in this part is this.........Trusting God works...........It sucks because you have to listen and I hate that.........you have to wait, have patience, know why it only thunder when it's raining, understand that love is gonna getcha........But it works.


Those on a personal level.  It's not about cheating.  It's not about women and men coming up in my face and you mad b/c you think they should be coming to you.  I don't care about none of that.  I am trying to do what I think I can do to help this country this way of life stay afloat.  So all the games, all the memories and time you all spend trying to mess up this and do that only give me fodder to make those who hold these words to heart that I write, those who pray for me every night, b/c I need it, those who do the things I don't even know about to make my day just a little bit easier.....


All those games give me reason to show the deepness of the relationship that I have with the God I serve and to show those just like Elgin Charles' Hair www.vh1.com for showtimes.....cool show on monday nights.......I am on point.  I am not going back to the way it was.  There will be no drama at the end, this is life and I know my blessing is coming. Either you are going to love me or hate me. but I have to do with best for me and first and foremost that is surrounding myself with people that care and will look out for me.


It's nothing disingenous, it's just participation in trying to live the faith, freedoms and fellowship afforded to us in this country.  I can't ask you not to hate, that's asking you all not to breathe.  Just move out the way, so that way the lights can be on me,  my right side works better. You all are going to talk anway.


Come on Kayne.........

Today's selection, in reference to the hard fiscal choices that must be made.

Heartless.


In the night I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless... oh
How could you be so heartless?

I am going to use literary liscence to answer some of the critisicms about me and I know being heartless is one of them.  I am one of the coldest stories ever told, I am a Dallas, Texas raised in the 70s capricorn........  Some folk feel that America has lost its soul, espeically the American man to this so-called cold American woman.........How can I be so heartless, huh? 

Esoteric questions indeed.......

How could you be so,
Cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo

Baby, i just said I'm a cappy and America, my homegirl, she number one so she's a cappy by default, she sits on top of the chart...........Your prespective and range is different on the top....What seems like the cold winter wind to you, is shorts weather for blue devils like myself........


Just remember that you talking to me yo
You need to watch the way you talking to me you know

does this not eptimoze the common complaint against, black american women who have the audacity to stand for values.......a housewife can be a homewrecker just like a streetwalker and can be a homesaver......

I know this is what delmar says to me all the time.  Watch the way I am talking to you.........How about being thankful that I am talking to you.......I know my worth and trust you can't cash a check that large at Ace.  As far as my homegirl America,........why do you have to be so aggressive Kayne......can't you leave that masculinity for the homies on the block.  This is home, you don't have to be that way in your home.......

I mean after all the things that we been through
I mean after all the things we got into

I mean after all the things that we been through.
I mean after all the things we got into...........and you still wondering why I say I don't care no more, why we have to make hard fiscal choices.......


And yo I know of some things that you ain't told me
And yo I did some things but that's the old me

Does it matter what you did or I did......in the end no, u only mention past acts to deter attention away from the problem.  those acts were done, we can't change them, we can only change the impact they have on us.  either stop spending or die as a country in debt.  either stop lying and pretending that ur own people is the source of your destruction or die with their ugly truths strangling you b/c this is it.......


And now you wanna get me back
And you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend
Well I got homies

it's not about getting u back.......it's about moving on.  We gotta do what we gotta do as a nation, I gotta do what I gotta do as a woman. when you realize the importance of staying in your own lane, you don't have time to go down old exits......it's not about i don't know you, i just don't want to know you anymore......

we all got friends......

we all got homies and some of us on a personal level, needs to know that that is so true for me, you in the midst of people who will turn at any moment.  please be careful, for goodness' sake ;)

if you good people, good people take care of you.

But in the end it's still so lonely
so why continue to trip and just accept what it is........your heart is in the hands of a cappy for a nation, as a woman.  Snakes is meant to walk on the ground, eagles is meant to soar.......you feel me, you can't fly alone, you can but why.....

In the night I hear 'em talk,

that's what men do, talk about things they know they are going to do, talk about things they know they have no intention of doing.......

The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless...

can't u see you didn't lose it Kayne, you gave it to me(not literally.......) you gave it to this country, by benefitting from her.......by using her for every dime you could get and now you support those who dog us...........who is the heartless one ?


How could you be so heartless... oh
How could you be so heartless?
How could YOU BE so heartless to dog the ones, to dog the woman that loved you, the country that loved you, stole, lied, begged and cheated for you?  Is a chance at a new car, a new ring, some stacks of other folk money that important to you, my black brothers, my enemies, my young american men.......

How could you be so Dr. Evil
You're bringing out a side of me that I don't know

I knew it was there, emotions are women's turf........we run you all up and down the block just to show you, you have no clue where you at......

I decided we weren't gonna speak so why we up 3 a.m. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me for, homie I don't know she's hot and cold

Hot and cold,......nah... america moves by its gdp, its deficit, and other fiscal measures.......not about hot and cold, it's about we broke, and yeah, we mad at u, b/c you all Kaynes of the world, personally and nationally help this fool try to break this country and now we gotta break you to break him and it hurts..........so heck yeah, we mad at YOU.

I won't stop, won't mess my groove up cause I already know how this thing goes,
You run and tell your friends that you're leavin' me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see,
You'll never find nobody better than me

baby, that's a chance any woman who knows her worth is willing to take.  Better than you at what is the question.........There are times where what you did better than anyone else is necessary, there are times where it ain't..........Please don't sleep on American women, my American men.......don't let your ego talk you out for your blessings.  You in a country's bosum that lets you love her anyway you want to, all she asks is to just take care of her and give her the respect deserved is that so hard......At some point in a grown woman's life, who knows herself and knows her worth, she has to walk and if she turns sideways and a hand is reaching for her cool, but if walking alone means those knives out of her back......

hey, it is what it is....

In the night I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless... oh
How could you be so heartless?


Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk,
Baby lets just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you

yeah, they kinda of do, know Kayne, the beef between black american citizens some of us, and this country has been known and documented.  the acts that range in a personal level for me are notated as well, they do know.........that's why they will have no problem replacing you.  There is always somebody who fought for their right to be on top just like you.......don't let your arrogance make you forget that.  This is America, the woman of women........, somebody is always knocking on the door, waiting for lady America, to put her hand on top of his.......

So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
and you can't make it right
Im gon' take off tonight
Into the night...

well brother sometimes that is needed.  It's not about hating you, it's about moving on.  We broke as a country, we can't afford THE RACIAL AND CULTURAL BULL THAT IS GOING TO EMERGE FROM CHI-TOWN MORE THAN WE CAN'T AFFORD THIS FISCAL DEFICIT.......

In the night I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless... oh
How could you be so heartless?

IT AIN'T ABOUT BEING HEARTLESS, IT IS ABOUT HAVING THE COURAGE TO BE HONEST WITH YOUR HEART.  I LOVE THIS COUNTRY MORE THAN I LOVE ONE INDIVIDUAL THAT DON'T BELONG IN IT, AND THAT IS NOTHING PERSONAL.  I SIMPLY MEAN.

IF 4 TRILLION DOLLARS IN CUTS WE'LL GET US ON OUR WAY TO HAVE A COUNTRY FOR GENERATIONS TO COME JUST LIKE GENERTATIONS LOOKED OUT FOR US......,

THEN CALL ME HEARTLESS........

THEN CALL ME CRUEL.........

THEN CALL ME COLD.........

THEN CALL ME FULL OF IT........

THEN CALL ME HYPOCRITICAL...................

just as long as they still call this country America how we now know it.  As a Judeo-chrisitan culture based soceity....

I'm all right with that.

As a sign of that God is truly amazing and we can learn from all sources.


Delmar was telling me his niece was singing this song........and for a variety of reasons, it will be a long time if ever, if I see this neice again, but i thought of her this morning, because i used to sing this song as a little girl around her age.  She told Delmar her mom loves this song, her mom and I are actually the same age.  It was on the radio this morning, and everytime I hear this song, I think of Dallas, Tx, the camp where I stayed and grew up...........where delmar's sister spent part of her life down the street from where I grew up.


The darndest things can bond anybody, huh.....The memories of that song don't just belong to me, I suppose.  Those times are made me want to be successful because I saw the rewards for myself.  And I guess God, wanted to give me a reminder b/c I have been hearing that song all weekend, that I am not the only one who saw those rewards.......Look it ain't no hate, in time,i'll be gone.  La is calling, i'm just holding out on a first class ticket.  I've done the greyhound route before in LA, it's not a pretty sight.


That's it, we leave with the benediction today, from Ms. Anita Baker, a soror of mine, YES, WE HAD SOME BLUE LOVE ON HERE TO DAY ZETAPHIBETASIGMA until the day I die.......


until the day I die........


Now, I leave you with the lyrics, but you have to promise me, PROMISE ME, YOU LISTEN TO THE EXTENDED VERSION, THE PIANO SOLO ON THIS SONG...........MY GOD........MUSICAL ECTASY......SORRY.


Fairy tales.....


(Anita Baker, Vernon Fails & Michael Powell)
Mmmm-Hmmm

I can remember stories, those things my mother said
She told me fairy tales, before I went to bed
She spoke of happy endings, then tucked me in real tight
She turned my night light on, and kissed my face good night
My mind would fill with visions, of perfect paradise
She told me everything, she said he'd be so nice
He'd ride up on his horse and, take me away one night
I'd be so happy with him, we'd ride clean out of sight

She never said that we would, curse, cry and scream and lie
She never said that maybe, someday he'd say goodbye

The story ends, as stories do
Reality steps into view
No longer living life in paradise-or fairy tales-uh
No, uh-huh-mmm-mmm

She spoke about happy endings, of stories not like this
She said he'd slay all dragons, defeat the evil prince
She said he'd come to save me, swim through the stormy seas
I'd understand the story, it would be good for me

You never came to save me, you let me stand alone
Out in the wilderness, alone in the cold
My story ends, as stories do
Reality steps into view
No longer living life in paradise-or fairy tales-yes

I don't look for pie up in the sky, baby
Need reality, now, said I
Don't feel the need to be pacified,
Don't cha try
Honey, I know you lied

You never came to save me, you let me stand alone
Out in the wilderness, alone in the cold
I found no magic potion, no horse with wings to fly
I found the poison apply, my destiny to die

No royal kiss could save me, no magic spell to spin
My fantasy is over, my life must now begin

My story ends, as stories do
Reality steps into view
No longer living life in paradise-or fairy tales-
Eh, hey, hey-ee-mmm, mmm

(laugh-laugh-laugh) Lord have mercy
(laugh) ooo
Mmm, mmm (laugh) ooo-mmm-oh Lord



THIS IS THE FISCAL BUSINESS OF OUR COUNTRY, NO TIMES FOR FAIRY TALES, OBAMA.


BE BACK TOMORROW. TAKE CARE.  2:30, i got my hammer on.... #ucantstopthis....








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