Monday, June 13, 2011

The Book of Culture (Chapter 44)

Hello America,


Well we are almost to the end of this book.......


Its been a fun ride hasn't.


Congrats to the Mavs, no doubt, but out of respect to my commitment to my ice daddies, I have a special post Friday dedicated to the Mavericks......  I think we all will enjoy it, I do.  But I am very proud of you, guys.  



I want to leave, I wanna go home.  LA for good or for bad is home to me.  B/c Los Angeles let me rest on her beaches, and left me alone.   But I can't.    God has other plans.  If I leave, somewhere new awaits

Down here the drama, the games........but I know it is about being number one, I don't know how to not suceed.  I don't know how to take second place, I don't know how to give up.  But those traits those qualities are a testament to me, but to the way I was raised in that that the spiritual training I received at Good Street Baptist Church.

Growth occurs, every day.

So when I hear that some dudes wore black, and took one pair of clothes to a two game series, THAT'S HUMBLING........

So when I am talking grit on facebook and someone says, WHO KNOWS ALL MY FAULTS, ALL MY DIRTY BUSINESS..........I believe, THAT'S HUMBLING............

So when I am going to get to you my Dallas Daddies Friday  







This is personal Dallas talk for the most part today. This all God.  


The winner of the NHL series, gets love all day Thursday.  I think we all will enjoy it, I do.


I still got my DB ranger jersey, my robert traylor michigan jersey and unfortunately I know have a godrey myles dallas cowboy jersey.


He was 42, y'all.  Six years older than me..........


We have to make things easier on our people, politicians, black, white, green, yellow........


They dying out here son......They dying.


B/c the stress of keeping up and fighting every citizen in the world at times for homes, jobs, lives, and destinies get to be unbearable.  My prayers to the Myles family.


When I wrote that post Saturday, I cried after because I knew that my life would not be the same after that.  I knew that those who I have to battle would come harder, would cut deeper, would push me to the brink.........And yes, I fell off, but not into an abyss, but to where I always land


in God's hand.


A good friend of mine is related to a member of that Dallas Carter 1988 football team.  I know football.........for a variety of reasons, not b/c I played save the jokes.  And that team, had RAW TALENT, RAW..........AT EVERY POSITION.  YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT DEFENSIVE ENDS AND CORNERS that were light years from where the nfl was then,  now speed that would be coming out 1992 ish.......


It kills me how good this dudes arm is and everytime swear to God, I see vick throw flatfooted, it makes me wish that I could see this dude in his shoes, for he is taller, and bigger and stronger, and a pure passer.......no running.  A beautiful thing indeed.


To me as a teenager it would just a game, but as I get older I realize the depths of the destinies that are touched with a simple decision to follow the rules or to not follow the rules. I guess that's why these grey hairs on my head are starting to sprout.........


Yesterday, was very, very difficult for me.  I was hurt and who can hurt you more than your fam, not necessarily blood, but fam.....  But God had prepared me, he had.  I knew it was nothing personal.


When I wrote that piece yesterday, it was because wade to an extent and lebron are childish, moreso with lebron, but you can't be mad at him because look at the life, he has been given......yet has not earned.  You all do realize that a team won a championship and Dirk ain't selling no bratwurst, jason terry ain't got no champion chicken stands, I am being factitious, but you get my point.


A group of dudes with nick names like the custodian, jet, that german dude, jim carey's brother (dude, that's eerie, we need a DNA test.....), that crazy ass owner, that washed up matrix, fossil, you know..........


Nobody's, cast offs, can't play d dudes, believed in each other.


Jason Terry said God gave him the power.  And while his God may not be my god, it is all right.  


B/c God gave me my power.  I knew when I started that posting about the mavericks, I KNEW  THAT DALLAS WAS GONNA WIN.  I KNEW was hoping Boston would be there though.....


B/c God told me it is time.  


No sermon, just talk.


So many days, I have to endure so much.  Last night, I finally had a boiling point this morning, of people prodding, poking, reminding me of my appearance..........You think I worry about how I look when I have been homeless in this heat and cold?  I apologize for the errors, I am crying and my allergies are killing me, so I am writing with no contacts and no glasses, kind of like letting Stevie Wonder loose on 635 in dallas, and saying have at it homie.........  OMG, people, these little fans that surround Delmar, my word for those trying to be down for whatever reason.


YOU HAVE NO CLUE WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH.  YOU HAVE NO CLUE WHO ARE YOU DEALING WITH.  I  am not a some manly woman.........Dude, I am not rocking the skinny boy jeans, shorts.....No offense, I am Tiffani El Dawn Damn Mims.....  Some of us, since I am since around here, get caught up.  I have been falsely arrested, robbed, sold dope, grew weed, went to law school, been a convict, had it all, lost it all, two or three times, AND I AM JUST 36.  I have seen every major city in this nation, it ain't a major city that I don't have the ability to lay my head down on.  I am a feminine, decadent chocolate woman who will always choose rent over some clothes.....Been down to many bad roads.  B/C I KNOW WHAT MY GOD HAS IN STORE FOR ME, IT IS NOT A REQUIREMENT TO NEITHER OF US, IF YOU KNOW OR DON'T.  


Get off your high horse, loves.  GOD WILL PROVIDE THOSE MATERIAL THINGS THAT YOU THINK I COVET IN TIME.  MAMA LIKES THE CHRISTIANS.......NOT THE NEW JORDANS.... I AM NOT GHETTO.  NOTHING WRONG WITH IT, I AM NOT, PROBABLY B/C I GREW UP IN ONE OF THE MOST EXCLUSIVE FOR THE LIFESTYLE, NOT NECESSRAILY REPUTATION FOR BLACKS IN AMERICA IN THAT TIME.  I AM SUPPOSED TO APOLOGIZE? OR ATTEMPT TO BE DOWN, GIRLS, DUDES PLEASE.......


THIS GROWN WOMAN, HERE.  I AM WHAT I AM. YOU ARE WHO ARE YOU.  DIFFERENT, NOT DISPARITY




  I don't do the wifey thing, I am a wife.  Because to me, marriage is a commitment to God ABOUT THE OTHER PERSON.  Now, I know some of you all ladies, will never grasp this b/c ain't no man gonna marry you without payments or bribes.  But in regards to me, let me tell you why I don't worry about my man going to events alone b/c he knows why.


I made a vow, for better or for worse,  and right now things are bad for me.


 I have to endure some very manipulative, malicious acts from some women who just don't get, they not fighting me, they fighting God's will I have to instill in Delmar's heart because I wish to instill it in my children's heart, THAT LOVE IS POWERFUL, THAT GRACE CAN BE DEAFENING TO YOUR ENEMIES, THAT FAITH............


FAITH............


FAITH IS THE BRIDGE TO ALL OF THE THINGS YOU WANT AND DESIRE.


AND THAT STARTS BY WALKING THE PATH THAT HE SETS BEFORE ME FEARLESSLY.......


NOT A DAMN DROP OF FEAR, COMES OFF MY BODY.  AND WHILE IT HAS TAKEN ME A VERY LONG TIME, NO NEED TO LIE, FANS AND THE LIKE,  BUT I AM WATER TIGHT.


I WALK THIS PATH BECAUSE I SERVE GOD BY BEING A GOOD WOMAN, NOT MAN....


HE USES ME TO SHOW THAT THERE IS SOME GOOD WOMEN OUT HERE AND WHATEVER HAPPENS WILL DO SO.  I AM NOT STAYING AROUND OUT OF DESPERATION.  THAT IS THE MAN I MARRIED, AND WE GOING TO GET SOME ACT RIGHT REGARDING WIVES IN THIS CITY, THIS STATE, AND THIS NATION.


this foolishness has gotten out of hand.


young ladies, class is in session, learn something.   A WIFE HAS TO BE EVERYTHING THAT MAN LACKS OR NEEDS.  MAMA, SISTER, PREACHER, TEACHER, DOCTOR, NURSE, COMEDIAN, POLICE, WHATEVER.

I am a wife.  not wifey material.  There is a difference.  Wives don't worry those who are secure in themselves, I am there now wasn't always.  Wives don't concern themselves with fans and the like.  Wives are empowered with representing God's will through vows of commitment.  We too busy to hang, to brag about what we "would" be doing for him.........

b/c we too busy doing it, duh......................

A wife cannot worry about where her man goes spiritually, fiscally, mentally, physically because in my eyes, it is a commitment to God, not to that man.  it is manifested through that man.  When you doing right, when you are on your personal point, God's way will work it out. regardless.

I am obligated to represent God through how I treat this man because I entered that vow of marriage and yes, we divorced, but that's man's paperwork ever so you have no clue you who romping with loves.......

THE COMMITMENT I MADE TO GOD HAS NEVER STOPPED. It will never will, ask God to take you in a ride in my shoes............for let's say one year since 1998 and ask yourself would you still be able to love.....to cherish..........to honor........to obey, (yes, I did that too in my twenties, which is why I don't know, i earned the right to say that........EARNED) for better or for worse.?  would you, little girls who finding life difficult to get your child's father to have a conversation with you, much less get a man to put his name on yours.......

older girls whose man don't come around when the checks don't.......

would you still be able

to have the faith NOT IN HIM, BUT IN THE GOD I SERVE THAT HIS WILL, HIS WAY WILL REACH ALL ASPECTS OF MY LIFE.


WHEN YOU GET TEN FIFTEEN, TWENTY YEARS WITH ONE, come hit me up loves, then and only then we can do lunch.


I can't get off the tollway of my life, to play games on the side of the road with you b/c your tolltag is out of funds.


I DON'T CARE ANYMORE MOTHER DEAREST......


MY FAITH WILL CARRY ME THE REST OF THE WAY.


PULL WHAT YOU WANT LOVES, YOU CANNOT SHAME ME FOR NO ACTIVITIES CONCERNING MAN.


GOD HAS MY BLESSING IN STORE FOR ME, I WALK THESE STREETS TRUSTING THAT, KNOWING THAT AS SURE AS I knew the mavericks would win.


FAITH IS STARTING TO BUILD IN THIS CITY AGAIN, IN THE NBA AND THE SPIRIT OF TEAMWORK AND STICKING WITH YOUR FAM......we all know everyone can't do it, but I am talking about these franchise players., ABOUT LEARNING TRUTH THROUGH OUR DADDIES ON ICE, ON THE HARDWOOD, THE FIELD, THE MOUND, THE LINKS.


THAT IN THIS COUNTRY UNLIKE NO OTHER, WE LET OUR MEN, OUR DADDIES TELL TRUTHS THROUGH THEIR BODIES AND SOULS LIKE NO OTHER PLACE IN THE WORLD.


THIS IS AMERICA.


AND YES, I TRULY FEEL LIKE THIS GOD'S COUNTRY,


so me and God jacked the 2011 NBA playoff season.  


NOW NEITHER ON US, THANKFULLY WERE ON THE COURT, BUT WHOSE TO SAY WE WERE NOT THERE.


B/C THOSE MEN, THOSE 12 MEN, COACHES, ALL THAT, CARRIED A REMNANT OF ME SIMPLY BEING A VEHICLE OF GOD'S TRUTH IN THEIR HEARTS


who says, who says miracles can't occur?


They do every damn day, as brother beck reminds us.


THAT'S A MIRACLE TO SHOW THAT A TEAM WHEN THE STAR WAS FALLING, SHOWED THERE MAY BE AN I DIRK, BUT NOT IN TEAM WE GOT YOU......


Don't that help us relate to what our soldiers are going through, Panetta, me and you got words tomorrow son, no doubt.....you will not cut our military health care, if your boss wont deport this folks..... *still looking at you sideways, while God is in my ear telling to me to stay on track*  


Don't help us look at each other a little differently as citizens........everybody dont need to be Obama or Tiffani, thank God for that, sometimes it is the little things that matter.  Like seeing a mavs jersey and smiling instead of mean mugging in the gas line.  You don't know what people are going through........


I have to fight women who only know agitation and drama and manipulation.  Me I fight buttnaked......GET OUT THE GUTTER.  I fight with truth, I don't have time to lie,  b/c I am not trying to keep up with all that.  I be into too much.  Deal with entirely too many grown women


I have to fight bitter hearts, bitter minds, and bitter souls.........And its some ugly work, ask Sarah and Michelle Bachmann, it gets ugly, that's why Malkin and Bila are the MVP's, they report it, we busy digging....


We live in a world, where some marketing genius tell us what we going to do, whose gonna win, whose gonna be President.  And God says, no more.


We live in a world, where we got folk who break the law for human rights, and imprison others for legal rights...........


And God says, no more.


We live in a world, where we don't wanna see a white mvp, but some of us can grab our black testicles and say we need a brother in office,


And God says, no more.


We live in a world, where single women are rewarded exponentially (not like that all single mothers, you know WHO I AM TALKING ABOUT, I KNOW A LOT OF YOU ALL TRYING, GOOD HARDWORKING MOTHERS...... I KNOW, I AIN'T TALKING ABOUT Y'ALL) for multiple children by multiple men for the criminal justice system to snort their lives off of while married women, those trying to treat their men like their husbands, like husbands, not they pimp, daddy or man........... are punished.........,


And God says, no more.


We live in a world where young women the hands that rock the cradle are empowered rightfully so through child support but the social blowbacks are rendering more and more children SEEING A FATHER, THE MOST VALUABLE LINE OF OUR DEFENSE OF OUR CHILDREN AS A CHECK,


And God says, no more.


We live in a world, where we cover our eyes and lie about the travesty that are happening to our children because of a society and government that demands parents work more and have less time to raise their children, leaving our most vulnerable citizens for slaughter through this internet, these games, these predators/pedophiles on the loose,


And God says, no more.


We live in a world with a man who wants everyone to have, and no one to earn........,


And God says, no more.


We live in a world, where we look for the worst in our men, instead of uplifting them THE RIGHT WAY BUT BEING WOMEN THAT RESPECT OUR HONOR OUR TRUTHS, IF YOU A HOE, THEN YOU JUST ARE, IF YOU NOT, YOU NOT  ALL THIS LETTING BROTHERS AND SONS FIGHT YOUR BATTLES, LADIES WE LADIES, WE DON'T FIGHT WITH FISTS, WE FIGHT WITH SPIRITS....GET YOUR GAME UP.  LET THE NUTS stay outside the ladies room.  :)


...........instead of just being real with them and making their souls so bitter,


And God says, no more.


WE LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE HIS COUNTRY, GOD'S COUNTRY IS BEING DECIMATED FOR THE SAKE OF FAIRNESS TO ALLAH in regards to culture, 


And God said no damn more..........


The mavs will win,  and they will defeat the king and what all he represents.


Boston loves, I wanna write a song today, but God jacked this post.........I can't do nothing but respect it.  He say in this post, is all you need to get by but if you wanna rock that Mary J. Blige/Method Man joint it don't matter.


He say it is in the air tonight like Phil Collins say that his will exhibited through teamwork and giving it you all, trusting every brother you got is what will get you through.


He say that if Mark C(your given name love.......not going to put out there) Cuban has grown and emerged into SUCH A DAMN DADDY, A DAMN BOSS, A DAMN MAN and can share his moment, give his moment to the man who made his team possible (DUDE, SUCH A CLASSY MOMENT) where I personally gotta send a gold star, Imma send it to.  no words, no cards.  you'll know.


THAT IF YOU CAN'T LEARN FROM THAT, THE SERIES AIN'T YOURS TO HAVE.


God says, no more winners determined before the clock is over.


No crowns to be given out, that ain't earned.


No more appointed ones to tell his children how to live, how to eat, that is HIS JOB THROUGH THE TRUTH HE PUTS IN EVERY MAN, WOMAN AND CHILD.


God says no more.


And last night was just the first example.


Tonight, will be the second.  I can't say who will win, but i do know if these group of men, skating on this ice as I can't chose side in this series no more, PLAY AND SHOW THE TRUTHS, FOR GOOD AND FOR BAD, THEN GOD WINS AND THAT'S ENOUGH FOR ALL OF US.


So with that, I end.  You right Lebron, I don't have no money, one pair of shoes, gotta bills to pay, can't work, need surgery, I ain't got it.


You right, I am going to back to my measly life in your eyes. BUT REMEMBER ONE DAMN DIFFERENCE.


ONE DAMN DIFFERENCE.


I GOT YOUR CROWN, WE GOT YOUR CROWN.


IN 8 YEARS, NO RINGS. NOW IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT UNTIL YOU RAN YOUR MOUTH LAST NIGHT.......


LIKE WONDER MIKE WITH 8 TRILLION DOLLARS AND AT LEAST 8 MILLION JOBS LOST TO NEVER BE RECOVERED AGAIN.


IN 2 TIMES, WE GOT A RING.


LIKE IN THE SECOND TIME I HAVE FOUGHT THESE WOMEN IN DALLAS, I AM GOING TO LEAVE THEM LIKE MY DADDY'S DID YOU......WE TOOK YOUR DREAMS, YOUR HOPES, YOUR RINGS, YOUR MARKETING, AND YOU DAMN CROWN. BUTTASS NAKED WITH A POCKET FULL OF APOLOGIES AND BLAME.


So take the riches love.........


We'll take the legacies.


God said no more.  You right about that Lebron, b/c its time for all of this made up grit from this marketing mess of sports to politics to stop.


No more.


that's all folks.


Amen.........


Gods word is present.













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