Wednesday, June 15, 2011

The Book of Culture (Chapter 46)

Hello America,


I am sorry for the lateness of this post.  I am going through some personal issues.  The championship was just a part of the puzzle for me at this moment.  There are personal crossroads that I am required to cross.


I so abhor having to do so, 36 years old, and the rebel in me remains strong, thankfully the adult in me is a lot stronger.


Let me clarify somethings before we get started today so we can get back to business.


For you all who don't know I am a victim of identity theft.  And when personal situations come onto this site, IT IS FOR SAFETY REASONS.  I have no need to demean anybody publicly.  My truth, my actions do that on their own.  However, I am dealing with two females who are dangerous in the sense that they engage in people's lives and create situations where somebody, in particular me as I have pressed charges against these two individuals, can get hurt yesterday was one of those situations.


So for a brief moment, can we allow mother dearest and moreso, Postal Tiffani to come up to the front of the classroom.


I want them to hear this story, I want you all to hear this story.


Last Night, of course, Delmar picked me up on time.  He was hurt and upset.  And there was a lot of tension at home.  As the tension began to climax, I asked him did I need to leave because I don't have time for what you two Postal Tiffani and Mother Dearest, had planned.

I don't have time for Delmar and I to get into a physical confrontation in my condition and it is tenuous enough where not much has to be done, and unprovable push or anything serves enough to have me hemorrhaging  which at best will take my womb, and save you and all of the mothers you empowered by giving them access to my identity or at the worst, my life, would probably be some test subject at Parkland Hospital for God knows what.

He looked and he started..........I could see it in his eyes, when you have known someone 25 years, when you have been with that person for the last 13, almost 14 years when your marriage anniversary is four days away......

You get to a point where there are no words being said........I can't get you two to understand because frankly, you all don't want a man in your life like that, so take my word for it.

AIDS IS REAL.  I don't have time to catch a disease, and have one of you two tell me well, you gotta deal with us now because I don't have insurance and due to my drug felony not able to find a job to get insurance. I would be rendered to the streets to provide for myself.  And this mob of prescription fiends that run this town through necessity and addiction and the wars we have battled, I can't do it to myself, not to speak up.

And because of the depths of corruption you two have shown over the years in specific regard to the Dallas Police Department's SouthWest division, the Dallas Sheriff's office, and the classification department at the Lew Sterret Dentention Center.  I have to be proactive in my mindset if you will.
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In addition to the fact of my phone being hacked and suddenly when I am rendered by myself, my phone's ability to dial out, including calling 911 if needed is not missed because of you two. on the same nights, he is gone and my house is surrounded by thugs and I can't have a gun or no other way to protect myself outside of this blog.

So last night, there was a moment where things could have went a different way, but because of my post, he went outside to contemplate some things he is going through and I went outside to the backyard.  You all are playing a very dangerous game with emotions and if I didn't have faith in the God I served to walk through the valley of the shadow of death and not fear the evil coming from you two, I wouldn't be here.

Delmar is not a bad man. He is actually a very kind, considerate person, but you two females bring out the worst in him in the spirit of "family" and he knows that, he is grown, so that tells me that is where he wants to be in life.  The worst trait that you all have instilled in him, is the one that exemplifies you all.  Your honest belief that you are "playing folk".  From 1999, I knew..............

I knew.................

I knew that Delmar's presence in my life, benefited you all in more ways than just love.  Identity theft didn't start with you all in my life.  From the moment I was born, and had a little green birth registration card, it was on.  I was used as justification for human rights versus legal rights of many illegal African and Latin men and women.  So please do not take this as an assertion that you all are to blame for all of my problems.  It is your willingness to incite violence, and knowingly get people locked up which render you a problem that has to be rectified in my book.  You all have crossed the line.

Delmar has been so used and abused by you two, emotionally and spiritually, that he is now trained to hold on to any little drop of kindness and caring you give him.  That is the way he chooses to live his life, I have no choice but to respect it.  But the pervasive pattern of thinking I am ugly, I am manly, I have to be crazy in order to put up with this, because I am so not like you all present danger for all of us.  It is people out there that love me too, you know...........

The only reason I stayed so long is because of you two because as soon as I met you, in particular Mother Dearest, I knew Delmar didn't stand a chance out here in this world of staying free from prison. You instilled in his heart a permanent disregard and disrespect of me and women like me that will never leave him on a personal level.  And I love him too much to see him out here floundering around out here emotionally and don't have a way to take care of himself with a career that fits his personality.

I love him too much to see him as a diabetic knowing the neuropathy that will come in the future to let him walk.

It is not out of dumbness, it is out of love for another.  And that requires a selfishness that you two will never be able to fathom.  I don't even try anymore.

The second lesson you imprinted on him is your supposed immortality in your acting without impunity and thinking that Justice will never knock on your door.  I can't blame you for Delmar talking to other women, however, that is his choice for not recognizing or not caring what he has at home.  That in itself is no reason for that to come up on a blog, but it is you all exacerbation of his vulnerabilities, his desire to always please the two females he emulates, he adores, he loves with all his heart that leads us to situations where someone is going to get hurt.

I don't need no female coming to my door, talking about how he is hers and things of the like when you all are empowering the lies he is telling her for your own personal gain, your own personal delusion that Tiffani is going to take the fall.......  I don't need the hostility that I have to deal with every day, all day, from these hostile illegal Africans, in particular Muslims from Eastern African countries, because you all lied to them and told them I was crazy, we was cool, etc in giving them use of my identity. AND TRUST YOU ALL ARE NOT THE ONLY ONES.

I don't need my parents angered because a vehicle they help pay for is being used not just for a man to cheat, but used in the delusion of making it seem like I am in any way, possible involved in the use of my identity in any means for anything fraudulent.  It has gotten out of hand because I expected law enforcement to do their jobs, but they can't because good illegals are better than bad legals, yes?  I don't need the disdain of my friends and family because they see me continue to be treated like crap because you all are so bold with your bull thinking that folk don't recognize Delmar or the vehicle he is on when you all are on these missions.

You two took two people who honestly loved each other at some point, and turned us into enemies, all for what.........

some houses.............

some cars.................

the right to say materialistically you better than someone..........

I know it can't be because you all got life situations................

HELL, WE ALL DO.  IT AIN'T A PERSON WALKING ON THIS SIDE OF THE POND THAT DON'T HAVE TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS IN THEIR LIFE.


I have to go home and live with a man, who I know in a lot of ways don't want to be there with me.  


I can't move to any other home.  I have to buy this house on gp, I like the location but I have to keep it out of the hands of the fiends you all have created by giving them access to my identity. 

It is time for justice to be had for all.  You all commit criminal acts and since you all had no problem holding me accountable for mine, what makes you any different?


I wish nothing but the best and I can say this earnestly because you two made me stronger than I ever imagined possible.  I know that there is a God because only he could find something positive in the interactions I have had with you all over the years.


You all cost me the man I love and that hurts.  But you all cost the man I love, the ability to trust and have the skills to treat me and my family with the respect and honor that I have longed deserved......and still that is no reason to post.


You all incited violence.  You all instructed for me to be beat because I chose to stand up for myself and make reports and because of the corruption at the aforementioned law enforcement agencies they stood silently by so your hustles could keep going.........  You all broke my parent's fiscal back by ensuring he would never help me, all for the sake of "family"


I He knows and I know that no one will take care of him, emotionally, screw some material things, like me.  You all cost him the best thing that ever happened to him and that's precisely how you want it, but I am not asking him to leave......


But how can we stay together here?  How can we be at peace?  When if I hadn't said anything, he would be out with his now.......?


Actions cost, dawg, that's all I am trying to get you all to see today.


Actions cost, and God told me if I trusted him and did what I needed to do that I wouldn't have to deal with this no more.


It is him, per se, but you all are emotional terrorists, and I am coming with a bucket of God's grace to help you all get all the compassion you need.


The corruption of this system has rendered all of us victims including you two, because of the lack of enforcement of fraud and immigration rules, you all became empowered terrorists, empowered monsters, playing with lives like you playing with cards.  And now you have the nerve to be scared?  to not want to be held accountable for your actions?


Come on, ladies.


We in the ladies room, now.  No nuts allowed, remember?  


Playing with my life, has affected the lives of my family, and friends.  I lost one of the best friends I WILL EVER HAVE IN LIFE......not b/c I didn't listen but because only I knew what physical safety parameters I had to face and I had to get her to leave me alone before I would risk anyone to life with any interaction with you two.  and that's gone and there is not a day that goes by that that doesn't cross my mind, nothing sexual dude.  I AM TALKING ABOUT A FRIEND.  I can get that with a text or a phone call with in thirty minutes with twenty to spare ;)


You all are cruel, manipulative, and needed a ignorant, diabolical, loving the Lord, raining Justice down like my ice daddy's going to be coming with them slap shots and what not tonight female to come and help LOVE YOU ALL TO THE LESSONS YOU ALL ARE GOING TO HAVE TO FACE.


YOU WERE WRONG.


YOU DON'T CALL THE POLICE TRYING TO FRAME INDIVIDUALS WHEN YOU STEALING THEIR STUFF.


YOU DON'T PLAY ONE CHILD'S TENDENCIES TO INCITE VIOLENCE AGAINST ANOTHER AND DON'T EXPECT TO BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE.


I DON'T WISH BAD ON EITHER OF YOU, I HOPE AND PRAY YOU OUT LIVE ME, YOU OUT LIVE US ALL, BUT I DO PRAY FOR JUSTICE.


AND I KNOW GOD HEARD MY CRY,  and my big sister, Michelle Bachman in particular did too.




So especially to my fb family, call me mean, call me a bitch, call me uncaring, say what you want loves.  But trust, if you ever read the unedited version of my life, you would know I carry so much compassion Jesus hits me up for a pound every month,  I charge him about 7500 on GP, I know he got it, I know his family ;)


Is that enough, did I answer enough questions?  America,  Dallas.  


Do you understand why I can say, it is either them or me?  Do you understand why I OFFER TO LEAVE?  Am willing to leave, if it helps these two women stay safe, healthy and free?


IDENTITY THEFT AND FRAUD COST WAY MORE THAN ANY OF US CAN EVER IMAGINE. 


MY LIFE IS A TESTAMENT TO THAT.


So when Harry Reid rights how the dream act is a win win for everyone,

ask his ass how is he going to rectify the wrong wrong that it took to keep these folk over here until they got their legislative immigration salvation?

Ask Brother Reid how are people like me and millions others going to feel positive about a country that put us as legal citizens to the side for the children of illegals who knowingly broke the law bringing them over here?

That locks up parents for child support saying you ain't doing the child right, BUT REFUSES TO ENFORCE IMMIGRATION LAWS, AND REINSTATE WORK PLACE RAIDS, AND ENFORCE THE OBVIOUS TRILLIONS OF DOLLARS IN MEDICARE FRAUD AND THE LIKE for the sake of human rights............


Ain't grit free in the world, not freedom, not amensty either.

All I am going to say to you, Senator Hatch, and others, Speaker Boehner, because you all on the hill know that the id theft and such that is going on down here, has national security implications.  Three of the largest churches in this nation resides in  250 mile radius.  is that you all need to get a budget deal done.

AND BEFORE PANETTA IS ALLOWED TO TOUCH ONE DAMN DIME FROM OUR MILITARY'S DESERVING HANDS.............

BEFORE ONE LEGAL AMERICAN CITIZEN HAS A BENEFIT CUT OFF.....................

YOU ALL BETTER FIND THE NUTS, COURAGE, OR WHATEVER YOU NEED TO START BACK IMMIGRATION WORK PLACE RAIDS, GIVE ICE AND OTHER AGENCIES THE MONEY NEEDED TO START MASSIVE DEPORTATION, TO MEDICARE AND MEDICAID FRAUD PERSONNEL TO STOP THE RING OF PRESCRIPTION DRUG DEALING ON THE TAXPAYER'S DIME.............

if you can't. DON'T TAKE A DAMN DIME.  


LET THIS SYSTEM FALL IT NEEDS TO, THERE IS NO MORE LIES, NO MORE.


THERE IS NO MORE CRYING AND LYING TO OURSELVES NO MORE.


THERE IS NO MORE GETTING HIGH TRYING TO MAKE IT ALL GO AWAY NO MORE.


TIME FOR GROWN FOLKS AT THE TABLE.


AND GROWN FOLK NO LIFE AIN'T NO ANITA BAKER #FAIRY TALES.


LAST NIGHT, MY LIFE WAS ON THE LINE, 112TH, AND IT IS DUE TO YOUR REFUSAL TO TAKE THIS BS FEDERAL INVESTIGATION OFF OF ME, AND LET LAWS BE ENFORCED THAT PUTS ME AND MILLION OF OTHER CITIZENS AT PHYSICAL RISK EVERY DAY.........


B/C SOME FOLK GOT SOME TAPES,


SOME FOLK GOT SOME SECRETS,


B/C SOME FOLK LIKE TO BEAT AND RAPE KIDS............


I purposely set things up, where I won't talk anymore the rest of the week about anything personal, if calm remains, or anything political.


THIS WEEKEND BELONGS TO MY DADDY'S, ALL OF THEM. B/C THEY DID WHAT THEY NEEDED TO DO.  THEY WERE HONEST WITH EACH OTHER, THEY ALL MADE SACRIFICES, THEY ALL CAME PREPARED TO FIGHT THEIR FIGHT.


AND WE WILL IN HONOR OF THEM AS MAMA'S IN THIS GAME ACT ACCORDINGLY.


Boston Bruins.......................


I aint got no song today for you.  All I have is truth and one question, why are you all still here?  Are you here to say you put up a good fight?  or are you here because you are willing to do what it takes to outlast the team across the ice from you?  Feelings going to get hurt, that is the reality of life.

But what are you going to do?  Because after tonight, it ain't no more.  No more chances, no more opportunity in about what eight hours?  Somebody going to be drinking from that cup, and it ain't going to be Drake...........

I have been so out of it, so hurt, haven't read the papers or anything...........

And I was getting ready today, and making my calender and God asks me "Tiffani are you going to the parade/"

And I am looking at God like "dude, that's ducked up, you know I don't have no money to fix my hair, no clothes, one pair of shoes..............come on,dawg, why would you ask that, I thought you were my friend, you know I am going to through a lot, right now............Man............."

God rolls his eyes, but is silent.  He knows I have had about 10 hours of sleep in the past 50 hours.

He asks "what are you doing tomorrow?"

"Going to court..................."

"You going to go?  b/c I know you have an aversion for court dates.............."

I push God on the shoulder "Dude, you wrong for that one, I am going to go.  I called they said nothing is going to happen to me if I show up and be honest so that's what I am going to do.  That part of my life is over, no more running although I never did, no more avoiding stuff.  If I end up in jail, I am not going to like it, but it's allright.  I'll get out three days ain't nothing compared to life.........I just don't want to do it."

God looks, nods and doesn't say anything but

"Tiffani, you did good, you think that mavs don't want you to be part of that win, a little bit?  You know it's people out there that got love for you..........But I understand totally, I do.  I can dig it.  Just do me a favor before the end of the day pick up a newspaper, okay?  Promise me, you will."

I do............

and lo and behold, I can't help but laugh when I do.  I have been so out of it, the parade is tomorrow and passing right by me as I walk hopefully(knock on wood, dude once you have been done wrong by the system, even the smallest of things cause anxiety) out.............My Daddy's will be passing by.

Cool damn beans............

Cool damn beans indeed.

I am not going to get paid for none of this promotion, Mark Cuban will never say why he shut up and give me that pub I need.......... but honestly the fact that the Mavs won and took lebron's crown on top of it, instilled some civic pride in our city, our nation, our way of life was enough for me.

But it means a lot to me as a fan and as a person who used every source of creative energy I could find to spread God's word and some love as well.

I appreciate it, Dallas.  I do.  Spending my last ten on a Mavericks t-shirt, for tomorrow.  I would do pink, but I am greek............and blue on top of that, that wouldn't be gangsta. ;)

The little things matter, even when the little people like me don't.

the little things, Boston, the little things you will have to do to win this game, because the Canucks bringing all they got to the table.

that's all................

until Sunday morning, no more politics.

Tomorrow belongs to the NHL, and Friday and Saturday belongs to the Mavericks.

My Dallas Daddy's hit it the way I requested..........gotta show an extra day of love for that ;)





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