Thursday, January 5, 2012

The Book of H&T (Introduction) Cont.

Hello America,

Today is my day off, and from those who work a lot, you know that you have more to do on your day off than you do on your work days.

I want to go out tonight, I work around 60 hours a week, in two more grad school courses, this semester psychometrics, which is tests and measurements and Developmental Psychology.

It seems the more you get into your graduate studies earnestly, there are no easy classes, just the challenges lie in different places.....

Last semester, I did keep my 4.0.... I was .10 in one class and straight up on the line in the other class, but I did it and I did with hard work.

And Something that the Pastor Spoke about.  So because I am writing a full political post tonight for tomorrow, we are going to discuss some background today.

Sunday, at church was a good thing.  I heard one of my favorite voices of all time, sing.....a very delightful Happy Birthday song, and for the first time in a very long time, we had fellowship at my church.  It reminded me of the love and the joy that made me proud to call Good Street Baptist my church home as a child. In the middle of the service, we say hi, we shake hands, we hug......we fellowship....

I saw a church doing something that this nation is going to have to do: fight........ for its existence, for its soul.....

And that warmed me and for the first time, I felt like my church was going to be allright, it has been a grave concern of mine, just as the sake of this country has been.

My mother got me two things for my birthday, that I think were symbolic, I think at least to me.  I LOVE perfume......

She got me Anai's Anai's, forgive me for the spelling, I am tired , and don't have my notes.  The first perfume I ever wore I started around 6..... I think, when I could I had it on.  And my own bible...

I would be lying if I said God's words wasn't a big part of me, whether I listen or not, is of no concern.

So as the Pastor preached, I try to take a little more heed.

He spoke from Haggai 1 5-7.  A minor prophet with major words.... Haggai is checking the Israeli people as some of us have to do, check the American people more specifically American politicians, including historians on the right who forget that although our Founding Fathers may have detested "pot growers" they sure didn't detest hemp growers ;) as they were some of them.......

I feel you Newt, your feelings hurt love, and you pout publicly.......

The word simply says.........


 5Now therefore thus saith the LORD of hosts; Consider your ways.
 6Ye have sown much, and bring in little; ye eat, but ye have not enough; ye drink, but ye are not filled with drink; ye clothe you, but there is none warm; and he that earneth wages earneth wages to put it into a bag with holes.
 7Thus saith the LORD of hosts; Consider your ways.

Which is the prophet's way of saying all bulls*** aside yo, what you doing ain't working........


The Pastor spoke of three steps is to assess what's going on, get in agreement with God about it, and acting upon it.

It is amazing the simplest things are the hardest to do........

I am at a crossroads with God, with this blog, I have been trying to shut it down actually for the past two years, but as my influence grows, I am asked not to.

It is 60 degrees in Dallas hard to not feel springish if you will. The Mavericks are finding the groove......Welcome Vince Carter, and Lamar Odom, we don't have schwagg here, We Let our Daddys rock their Daddy's....  Not a Black thing or an Hispanic thing, its just the way Dallas Women like our men thing.  Whatever you may be.............. as long as you how rock you is taken into consideration, we respect it, we applaud it, we need it.......Consideration breeds confidence......

And b/c of the fact that I am healthy, and I am working.  I am ready to leave Dallas.  It has been beyond time, I have things I need to do, I have to finish finally school at Pepperdine, I have to start making trips and making the eventual transition to the Hill. I'll be through with both of my degrees MA and MS by the end of this year, and I am earnest in my desire to be an advocate for mental health.  Although shedding tears like Newt ain't in my agenda.

The problem God and I are having is how to go about it.  I want to go about things my way.  I don't have the ex blocking my plans, I am by myself, I am working, I got my plan all set up.

God has his plan.....

Now God and I have assessed what I need to do, we are going to focus on the senate, in particular the removal of Reid is priority number one which is why Obama is reacting with fulfilling all of the socialist promises that he started out with. 

We are going to not only remove Reid, but charge Reid and Holder, and "talk" to Joe Biden whether Obama wins or not, and Biden will give us Pelosi and the members on the right as well, who were a part of empowering this terrorist into office....

We are going to keep the house........

And actually still have a plan for 2012, that I am going to mention as I won't be too much longer today.

But God and I don't have agreement on how to deal with it.  God wants me to trust him, but he allowed some things to happen to me, that hurt me, that almost broke me, and I don't deal with folks, or entities that hurt me..Not mad at God, just don't trust him.

But I am old enough to know to fight him is a losing battle, and so I defer to his wishes, although I am not signed on to his plan.....

and that's good enough for God for right now and that's going to have to be good enough for you.

I am not able to move......., and get started the things I need to in order to leave, which helps God as it keeps those who are using my identity to profit in some way or another alive if you will a little while longer and it increases the hopes that my ex and I who have a long storied, toxic history of getting back together.

The last part of the pastor's words were to act upon it.

For me that means to act upon watching God in my life, but simply staying back and letting things flow for awhile.  That means continuing to work and do the things I need to do, the best I can in the situation I am in.

For I am going to leave Dallas, there is no doubt about that.  There are too many reminders here of what was taken away from me, to remain.

I watched my big sister yesterday, Michele Bachmann, she didn't make it long..... she just said, I kept it real........I considered my ways which is why I am not going to win, I am not corrupt nor rich enough to pretend i'm not ;)

I watched the black dems already shredding Santorum on twitter and in this case, they have every right too.........As women as well.

There are a lot of white voters who are not taking into consideration, those of color and females will dictate the election this time.  Rick the mighty white right candidate jazz will win an election, but not the oval office.

I prayed from my soul, I considered my ways.........and I'll just say this as we will start the book of H&T tomorrow.  The T is for Tiffani btw.

If Perry wins the nomination and brings in Bachmann instead of Palin, I'll lend my efforts back into 2012.  If not, I am going to be outside the RNC election night with these three verses..........asking why didn't we consider our ways.......

That's where I am going to end for today. B/c I am going to write tonight for an 8 am post.  In which we will discuss why Obama's panicking.. even though key threats to him have dropped out, and Newt's obvious need for a time out, why Rick Santorum is going to do more for the Obama campaign than he will for the right's and etc.......

As we open the book of H&T tomorrow officially, please remember that out of deference to God, I will sit, I will remain in Dallas where I'm at for now......but I will be gone by myself by June and that part God and I have come to agreement on...

I know this post won't make sense to some, but it will to others. How I leave may be a source of contention between me and God, but if I am leaving is not.

Dallas Mavericks......play like it ain't no tomorrow........b/c for some of us, like myself, it ain't.

Be back tomorrow.  Let's just leave today with I have considered my ways......

take care.
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