Tuesday, May 8, 2012

The Book of Sacrfice (Chapter 2)

Hello America,

We are at our official start of this book.  I apologize for the time it took for me to get started on this book.  These are not just words for me, this blog is a reflection of my life.

I think this blog started in May  2008 right when Kevin Garnett and the Celtics were on their and just like that team, we've both gone through some changes.  Some losses, some gains..........

But the essence of what both of us are about still remains.

For you cannot change the fundamental truths about yourself.

In  your 20s you try to, In your 30s you discover those truths, in your 40s you begin to rise and build on those truths......

I thought about taking the notes from the sermon but I have decided against it.

Because this is America, and everyone does not have the same religious truths... And the founders did not make that a requirement to be a citizen, so I won't require it to be a brother or sister of mine....

One thing I have noticed about myself is that I fight, I don't know how to quit, I don't think about right or wrong, I just see a target as long as its there, I fight.......

When I look back on the books I've written... I think we are almost 1600 posts now...., I am just now discovering what I was fighting for when I started this blog...

I think we are for a treat this season.

The first 7 Chapters are from the truth of Sgt. Felix Quintana, a native Venezuelan, but a true American.

He earned a purple heart as being one of the "biggest and baddest", The Marine Corps....

His words not mine....

I was doing an interview and had my stuff along schedule, but I have been so busy, I didn't pay attention to the lunar calendar which directly impacts my energy level.  I am from the frame of mind, that the full moon represents the inner truths.  The things we do on that day, the things we say on that night, reflect us and the fundamental truths that make up the essence of our soul.

The full moon that just passed, was the brightest that it is going to be all year.

The Mavericks fell apart that evening.........

and I found myself that night.

I found myself in a conversation well, not really a conversation more of the listening in, with my ex-husband......  and I listened to things he said to me... things I have heard for years.....

I'm fat.... I'm gay.... I'm selfish.... I don't know what I want....Well I do, but you know what I mean ;)......I'm done... I'm crazy....Nobody wants me........

There is no lying here, there is no need to.........

And I sat there and watched these words come across the screen, as I have a paper due.  I am six months away from my MS in psychology on the verge of starting my thesis....and when I get the tuition bill paid, I will across Pepperdine's stage with my MA in psychology as well.

I sat there and I asked myself in that midnight hour as it was late.

What are you going to do, Tiffani?

And Keith Urban's truth, a man who is not born here, but found a home in country music, Amen to that brother... Amen to that.....

rang in my head...

"and the answer rang clear" as the lyrics say, but not from somewhere up above.... but from within,

"no greater gift has man, than to lay down his life for love"......

I don't think like a man and act like a lady.

I'm a grown ass woman,  I think like a woman...sometimes its a lady, sometimes, its a freak, but at all times, its #LisaStansfield... All Woman, All day long.

And I love it because I love who I am.

So I sat there and I thanked God for every single insult, every single mean thing my ex could muster to say against me... For as I hit the campaign trial...........  I will hear versions of it everyday for the rest of my life............

All of it isn't true, but we all know it doesn't matter..............

Truth is a reality that few can afford, perception through the guise of reality and reality TV is one we gladly pay for. ;)  for it is just an illusion.

So someone tell Tami of basketball wives, the world will not die if we don't see the reunion of the show ;) but it will leave our curiosity a bit unfulfilled.

I made a decision that night that I would down my life for the love of this country....

not on the battle field that Sgt. Quintana knows...

but on the one called politics, where no soul is left  unmaimed.... where everyone is a POW... for your soul dies whether you win or lose......

So I didn't shed a tear, I didn't stop what I was doing.  I heard every word and then I proceeded to work on my paper.  Vyogtsky isn't bedside manner to read.. no doubt. 

I watched every episode of the new show that I will feature...

Scandal on ABC ( great writing, great cast, I like Kerry Washington in this role, its fits her...) when I'm off this week and I will revamp the site and The Game on BET and Southland on TNT will have their sites as well.

I prayed on this truth that Sgt. Quintana, told me that hurt, that rocked me to the core........

And I went on because there is a brother on my left that's a Sgt. that asked something of me,

there is a sister on my right, that got babies that needs something of me.

The pastor's sermon was don't count me out and as I watched the Washington Capitals and the New York Rangers... I saw resiliency on ice from both teams.  I have to say to Walsh and Washington, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, no need to hold your head down.  I say to the Rangers, that's the way to play until the game end, the clock stopped....... y'all decided to post up on that top spot.... at least that night... live your life brothers... .live your life... Amen...

I chose to focus on the Clippers and Grizzles and while Chris Paul will get the credit and Blake Griffith as well.... the key to me in the series was Caron Butler, another Maverick that we paid to rehab only to let go, play with a broken hand, knowing.........and understanding the sacrifice to his career he is risking.......

The question I asked Sgt. Quintana was

  1. This election presents a lot of challenges, in the choice of candidates in the myriad of issues on the line, What is the fundamental question you want every voter regardless of party to ask themselves in the voting booth election day?
What’s best for this country?
Most important thing is that we have to have to vote.
We cannot afford to protest.
We are not voting a pastor in the office.
The Centurim came to Jesus, but wasn’t a believer.
This dude has a great regards for this county, he is not leading my church, but he is not leading my home, he is leading this country.  Everyone that says they are Christians are not.

I leave those quotes raw because that's how his words hit me.  From what I know of men from battle, from Marines... they've seen too much truth on the battlefield to spend time on lies.

He was talking about Mitt Romney of course.  He was talking to people like me, that will fight for Newt Gingrich until the end.... but as my coach has helped me understand, and I do have a political coach 30 years in the beltway under her belt... Newt will never be allowed to fight in the oval office because he will fire and end all of the corruption.

So because my brother... Sgt. Quintana.. put his life on the line, so I could put my soul on the line all to save this country asked me to.

I respectfully end the drama because I was a big part of Newt having a chance anyway.........

My brother asked me to vote, my coach gave me information about the ramifications of each choice, my sisters told me Tiffani we need jobs.

He states on his site which will have its own link up this week that he is concerned about jobs and unemployment and the decreasing value of the dollar.

So I sacrificed my ego, my pride and I am going to endorse Mitt Romney today.

Not because he is going to led this country into prosperity, not because he is the best man for the job, not because he is a conservative........

But between an American liberal that loves this country and a European based liberal that hates it........

I sacrifice the my right to say I didn't  have to nothing to do with it.

Tomorrow.......

We are going to take lessons from the Washington/New York series and Clippers/Memphis series until they end.... 

We are going to use truths from The Forgotten Man that my coach and Senator Ted. Kennedy (yes, he drops by quite often, he's very persistent when he wants something) have stayed on my butt about reading, and a great read... I might add 

and explain what exactly we are getting from Obama and Mitt Romney and why despite the fact that Portman will be the VP, get over people.

I'll endorse him anyway...

He is just a means to an end......... As Hillary stated a woman will get her nod, but I ain't ready just yet LOL!

Seriously, we will have a very honest assessment and endorsement of Mitt Romney tomorrow...

Because we will not allow the Obama administration to blindside us, we will know exactly what we are getting with Romney...

For we need him not to save this country, Romney is just a means to an end...  

We need him to start the battle for who is really suffering the most during the Obama era

"He is the man who is never though of.... He works, he votes, generally he prays-BUT HE ALWAYS PAYS...."

William Graham Sumner.....

The Forgotten Man, Woman and Child, won't be left on the battlefield this time, Romney won't save them.........

We will.

Until tomorrow......... 



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