Friday, December 7, 2012

The Change (Chapter 10)

Hello America,

I wanted to see a couple of things before I wrote again.

One of the issues involved a personal matter so that is of no concern and I wanted to see the Heat/Knicks and the Mavericks/Suns...

I wanted direction and God told me the story lied in these two games.....

When Jim DeMint retired to join the Heritage Foundation, it was bittersweet...

I was glad that he instantly promoted Rep. Tim Scott, not just because he is a young black male, but he is strong...  Kind of avoided some of the mistakes that Rep. West did......

It showed me that DeMint understands that it is not about racist policies like Senator Rubio promotes of amnesty but showing and giving opportunities to folks of every color and SES that are already citizens........

That made me proud and rest a little easier.

However, 14 years ago, I applied for a job as an analyst with the Heritage Foundation, I passed all of the IQ tests and other assessments.... turned in my two week notice for my other job at Jenkens & Gilchrist  a very respectable law firm........ at least by Chicago Standards ;)

And the secretary asks for a photo, and then the next day called and told me the offer was rescinded.....

And I was at a turning point in my life......

And frankly the turn wasn't for the good, with no job and increasingly abusive husband and immersion into criminal behavior, I started selling crack, not for play but to survive...

I was growing already but for personal use, now criminal means were my only means to survive... B/c rent and bills don't wait until you get another job... Hunger, none of that does either.

And the impact of the Heritage Foundation's decision still hurts today...

I didn't sue because in the midst of being abused and the fact that I actually believed in the Foundation and the fact that Dallas was a lot more brazen with corruption and selective justice......  I just walked away.......

So when I heard of the decision of DeMint  yesterday......  It was bittersweet, Had I been hired 14 years, there wouldn't be a President Obama now for the standard internet practices we take for granted now in regards to politics and data was just emerging then....

As I find myself running this campaign with no help from folks that I helped get things like gavels and such ;)

I realize that I am in the midst of a war far bigger than me.

It's not about being black, plenty of prominent black conservatives in the party.......

It's not about being a woman, plenty of female conservatives of every color from pundits to politicians....

It's not about a youth movement as I am 38, plenty of slightly older version that can somewhat relate...

It's me......

Because the things President Obama loves to pop s*** about but nobody can prove, I have actually done and been through and actually have the scars to prove it, Thanks to Dallas County, President Clinton and Bush and my beloved State of Texas......

I've gotten past the bitterness because I am finally at a point where I get the fact that the bigger war was being fought at the time......

The war for my soul.......


And there is nothing anyone of the above folks and entities could have done about it, but played their part ...

I know now had I not gone through what I did including with Heritage Foundation, I wouldn't be having the love I am getting now.

From folks all over the world, saying Tiffani let me help you.

Tiffani, we love you and your past is your past, let's move forward.

I wouldn't have the love I have from my three nephews, which keeps a personal reminder to me of what's at stake when I want to wallow in self-pity and frustration.....

So as the tears are falling down my face this morning, because everytime I hear the word Heritage.. my tears well.......  The battles were rough......

It amazes me through God's grace I am here, I don't know how I survived.....

I look at the Heat and Lebron is too arrogant to admit it, as he demands more of the Heat stage, one factor is evident, the piece that made everything fit in Wade is eroding..

He ain't who he was because hell who he is......

Lebron is realizing that the hype filled year it took to get him where he shouldn't have been with the ring on his hand is over.  The photo ops have been done.  No way can Stern pull this year what he did last year....

There is a war brewing....... because the basketball skills that folks that love to laud Lebron for have nothing to do with the leadership skills he doesn't have in certain ways to lead the Heat out of the war they are in.....

The Mavericks are going through their own struggles...... They know they are in a war, but the warriors they have on the team are a little different.  For all of the individual accolades, these dudes have there is a spirit of grace, faith and humility...... 

That makes their war a little different.

Yeah, beating phoenix wasn't a surprise, but when the final tally comes no win is greater than another, and no loss is either.

Quick story and I'm gone

God says, Tiffani

"Sooner or later, you will do better than most ever expected you to do...... it's your time....

And sooner or later, you will hit the circuit and play the game and the Heritage Foundation will reach out for you will create a situation where they have no choice. 

All I'm trying to say there is coming a time where you have to decide what rules your heart love or war..."

I nod and I listen as the tears glisten...

And I said..

 VERSE:
You said there was going to come a day.
Where I could no longer hide.
Where my heart would proudly say.
No longer ruled by pride.
It's going to be some fighting and changes in destinies.
Because the moments beholden are for the glory of Me.
Cuz I am that bold, you can't wave that flag, even through that bad.

PRE-HOOK:
Cuz I made you well versed in worse.
Time to lead this nation through familiar hurts.
You know that I'm always by the riverside.
Time to show how more than to survive.

Hook:
Your pain will be the new headlines.
So you can't fear because the shots won't stop.
I am your God.
  I'm in control.
You play your part, I play my role.
You had your years.
  . For this moment here
  Because baby it's love and war.


Love and War (God's war cry)
Written by Tiffani E. Mims (ASCAP) licensed

Because of love for this country, we are in the midst of a war.

We have to decide are we going to be Pat Riley and yell and cuss and fuss about what he did with players that had far less superior atheletic skills, but vast more leadership and character skills...

Or we going to be Mark Cuban and Rick Carlisle and just ride this wave putting every ounce of energy to every moment, where Vince Carter is surrounded by pumps and slaps b/c we know were we headed, despite of what it will take to get there...

Either we, we put no flag up...

Boehner, and understand I will get Bachmann the gavel because you turned away Tea Party congressmen, but you didn't turn down that money or votes from them did you.

Obama, please take many pictures of that wonderful vacation, for as the nation sees the delight in your babies faces ... they know it came from the disappointment in their children faces from reckless spending and economy destroying practices...

   So as I end this post, God pulls me aside and says Tiffani......


"You got Boehner, The GOP, Pelosi, Reid, Obama and the Dems in  your cross hairs"


I smirk and laugh and say "I got far more bullets than Huck did last night on that episode of Scandal and frankly all is fair in love and war"  ;)


Great Song, Tamar's Team and When Ms. Tamar can stop referring to herself in the 3rd person which is the ultimate sign not of a diva, but of insecurity and realize in her own ways, she is far stronger a woman that she ever gives herself credit and a testimony......


She will be everything not that the she thought she would be......


But everything God needs her to be.


I got a song already in mind for Ms. Tamar and Toni...


Not that for fame or fortune, b/c because there is a strength in those voices that needs to be heard through an inspirational message.


Take care until tomorrow.



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