Tuesday, February 26, 2013

All Roads Led to Chicago (Prologue)

Hello America,

I am sorry that I haven't written, just working on finally finishing this thesis.  Some great research, working and getting settled in here in Chicago.

I haven't gone out as much as I do, but I make sure to get out once a day for a good hour or two because I need the cold, I need the air to clean out my system.

I had already prepared to make my way back to Dallas for Easter weekend which has always been a tumultuous time in my week for the past 15 years or so........

Got the word from my family, they don't want me to come home....

I want to say it's because for a variety of reasons including the identity theft that is I am sure is full speed in Texas right now because of my absence that's its best I'm not seen in my beloved Dallas not until this great town of Chicago has sent me back home broken and for good....

So this morning, I cried..  I am not Hillary, I am not ashamed to do so.  I think when you can't cry is when you can't feel and for me that usually periods of non sobriety and that's not where I am at these days...

I have read the political news, but I told Speaker Boehner and President Obama that I would give them their time to make their own decisions and I kept it.  Each one of those men has made their choices and so have I......

Consequently, I have one quick story, have to talk about my mavs, my celtics, my rangers, a little sports  and of course as we always do, end with a song.  Went through billboard this morning, the charts are a little trashy this morning, so if my choice is off the beaten path....forgive me the rest of my life is...



God came in my room this morning as I sat out and watched the snow fall...  It is my day off from work, but for reading trying to develop a platform and working on my thesis, it is just another day in the office....

He sits besides me and he holds my hand and for a long time, we don't talk.... We just sit, one of the benefits of getting older in age and in faith... There becomes a realization that there is far more to do than to say....

Finally, God says "Thank You, for not being angry at your family this morning.....  Thank you, for being upset but not mad and waiting on me to talk to you.... Thank you for not attempting to things your way because I know you and I know that was hard for you"

I don't say anything but I do hold God's hand a little tighter.....

"For the past 7 years, all roads to Chicago in your life..... it has nothing to do with Obama, nothing to do with politics, nothing to do with identity theft, simply and solely to do with me.

As much as it hurts right now, to not see your family, you not married, no kids, you single... and I want you to feel what our soldiers and those who have to be away from their spouses and kids feel because they have a duty that requires that absence.  I want you to understand that right now you and Dallas need to separate and whatever is going on down there I will handle.  It is not your fight.  but what is going on in Chicago is...

Not because of gun control, or Rahm Emanuel trying to ban two liters, or Michelle going to the Oscars or to combat Hillary.....

but because of the blood in these streets, because of the souls that haunt your dreams, and tell you things and stories that you don't want to hear but need to...

And it is the fight for this city's soul, that is the Gettyburg for this nation's spirit.  

You don't even know...... "

God pauses..... trying to gauge how much of this I can take in.....

"You can't see how strong you are yet, you can't see you and Dirk are alike in that your strides are coming back because all you can remember is the start you have...  

You can't discern what your presence does for your foes because it is not about you, it is about the path that I put you on, and no need to cry or be mad at yourself for one day, you will see that all roads led to Chicago and nobody is on this road, but you and I..... And that's the way I want it."

My point is this, when I was younger, I did what younger people do.  I talked, I blamed, I found fault in everyone else but me.  But I'm older now, not just b/c of a birthday, but because maturation is a process and I'm evolving mentally.  I can't change Chicago, Hell I don't want to.  But I want to understand it because I understand Texas, I understand LA, I understand Boston believe it or not, but I don't understand here.....

And how can I ask for the right to lead this nation if I don't understand this nation.

I will never know all the right answers, compared to a candidate like Hillary Clinton, but I'm thankful and glad for that because that fact forces me to rely on who this nation is supposed to be governed by:

The American People, the legal citizens of this nation.

I will never be viewed compassionate compared to a candidate like Marco Rubio, but I'm thankful and glad for that because that fact stems from the fact in this city I get to see people from places I have never heard before in Europe and all over frankly, say I am an American because I made the sacrifice to do things the right way.

I am a stronger woman because of that.

I will never be Sarah Palin because I don't have the right husband nor kids, but I'm thankful and glad for that because that fact forces me to love and fight to keep other marriages together and families by enforcing the law so that they can have prosperity and hopefully pull the covers on my shoulders when I am no longer able to do so for myself because God has made it clear that for a period of time to go, all I will know are streets in the zip codes that start with 606.

I am a better person because of that.

At this point, in my life, and I say this as I close to the Mavericks, to my Celtics always love loves...  to my Rangers, to my nation for I am possessive and whatever I deem mine, I will fight for,  I will die for, that's the kind of woman I am....

You are stronger and better than your opponents, not because you have the better players according to stat sheets and the Skip Baylesses of the world,

You are stronger and better than your opponents because you don't have that.

You are forced to use every iota of strength, of fortitude, of sacrifice, of communication to get to your goals.....

If your road is a Championship, a world series, the oval office, or just to even come home and be a better man or woman than you were the day before.....

Focus on what lies ahead and conquer it, by using what you overcame behind you.

And I give you my word.....


Because I ain't home
It's time to own
It's going to a lot of dark before dawn
These days of darkness
Which will show
the pathway in which rings are won

So please dont back down,
The time is now
I'm here in this town,
and I'll hold this ground

And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
I will wait (Chi Town's Rumble)
Written by Tiffani E. Mims
Original by Mumford and Sons


It's not about me being from Dallas, it's not about KG being my favorite player... It's about there is a testimony in these teams from Vince Carter to Paul Pierce to Doc Rivers to Mark Cuban to Danny Ainge, to Benard James to Jason Terry to a Nolan Ryan to Elvis Andrus (need to stay love...you are our leader now, need you to stay, we need you for more than money can say) to Ron Washington....

Do you understand what I am saying this morning?  There is a story that God wants told from these men's triumphs and tribulations..... that for more than Lebron and the league need to hear, that our young people that our citizens need to see... It ain't about no ring, it's about the paths....

So Mavs, Celtics and Rangers, and my political friends and foes....

I'll wait for you here in Chicago.....

Because this year, all the roads that matter to a lot of us are going to led to here, and Barack nor Michelle Obama, have nothing to do with it.

This town belonged to God long before Barack, Michelle, myself, Jesse Jackson or Daley, Jordan or anyone else laid claimed to it.

My sole job is to put his flag on this ground and die before I let anyone take this simple flag that says 

"God's property, God's people, God's will" on it

I'll be back when God moves me to write again.

Take care...
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